I'm a 20 year old dude from PA. Joined up here to talk to some people who understand what's happening to me. The people I used to hangout with did not.. and I've now found myself very lonely.
I've been nervous since I can remember. Things kinda came to a head in September when I had a cell phone ring in a lecture hall during a quiz. Game over. After that, lecture halls were a constant fear of worry and I began to see the school psychologist to figure out what was going on. It didn't help. I got a medical withdrawal and went home. Obviously not a wise life decision but if I was too scared to go to lectures failing out would have been awful, figured I should just end the year with a few W's and a semester off while I sort through everything.
Over the period from then until now, things seem to have stagnated. As of last week a new medication has made me particularly panicky although more likely to give things a try. That ended in me ruining a friends birthday party (panic attack which I couldn't stop.. took away the bday girl's attention from her guests. Wasn't cool of me but I couldnt do anything about it) which I guess I knew I never should have gone to. She isn't very willing to talk to me at the moment. Now I'm just kinda lonely and stuff. Hoping to find some like-minded people to talk with while I get this stuff sorted so I don't bother "regular" people anymore.. haha
Anyway, I'm sure I'll be on here quite a bit. Not like I've got much else to do. Looking forward to meeting everyone!
I've been nervous since I can remember. Things kinda came to a head in September when I had a cell phone ring in a lecture hall during a quiz. Game over. After that, lecture halls were a constant fear of worry and I began to see the school psychologist to figure out what was going on. It didn't help. I got a medical withdrawal and went home. Obviously not a wise life decision but if I was too scared to go to lectures failing out would have been awful, figured I should just end the year with a few W's and a semester off while I sort through everything.
Over the period from then until now, things seem to have stagnated. As of last week a new medication has made me particularly panicky although more likely to give things a try. That ended in me ruining a friends birthday party (panic attack which I couldn't stop.. took away the bday girl's attention from her guests. Wasn't cool of me but I couldnt do anything about it) which I guess I knew I never should have gone to. She isn't very willing to talk to me at the moment. Now I'm just kinda lonely and stuff. Hoping to find some like-minded people to talk with while I get this stuff sorted so I don't bother "regular" people anymore.. haha
Anyway, I'm sure I'll be on here quite a bit. Not like I've got much else to do. Looking forward to meeting everyone!
