help meeeeee

I have ocd and social phobia... I always think about what I'm gonna say, mostly I "have to" say something funny or it isn't worthy. for a while a use to be a funny person... laughing out the summer... then I became obsessed with being funny and then I can't be funny or be anything at all... so I don't know what to do.. this has been going on for quite a while... I go to doctors, but they aren't much help... one doctor, he's very appreciated in my country says that it should pass, threw adolescence, actually he guarantees, but how can he do such a thing? and he recommends cognitive behavior therapy... I believe it's a good thing if properly given.. but I don't know any experts... and my situation is very complicated... I do believe in God, but then comes the doubt, what if it isn't my destiny to get well, what if I have to spend the rest of my life like this??? it's really scary... I'm 16 and a half... and there's not much time till I'm an adult... and I can run away from the problems now, when I'm still a kid, but what when I turn 18, and I really don't believe things will change in a year... I don't expect to suddenly get better, but I need some treatment that will help me threw time, not the weather forecast every time I see my therapist, well if can be called so...
People say : BE YOURSELF... how am I suppose to do that if I don't know who is 'myself', always trying to be another person, and by doing that I'm neglecting myself... actually really scared that 'myself' is boring... any advice... really obsessed... tend to dream off... to lala land, but I know that that just delays my recovery, if it exists... and I use to be so funny, or maybe I just had a different concept of funny... but then I compare my friends reactions to my humor and see that it's not just my imagination... pls anybody??? have a whole lot of other things but can't remember... even suspect I'm cursed, but that's just me trying to blame someone else... actually I hope that it's just all a curse someone could take off... even started to doubt mu intelligence.. I did an IQ test, did some stuff good, but I didn't even know how to put together a simple facial puzzle, or some cubes, stuff that kids do, don't if it was the pressure because I was being timed. that really made me even more depressed... but I don't wanna get on antidepps because there just gonna fool me and make me addicted... anyone??? pls... sorry it was so long, I planned on writing a shorter post so that someone would read it, so if u did read it, thanks for the patience...
 
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Noca

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Try writing in paragraphs with proper sentence structure then people can read your post and repsond :)
 
Try writing in paragraphs with proper sentence structure then people can read your post and repsond :)

What is this english class? The guy obviously has sum issues n doesnt need to worry about sentence structure man. It can b read perfectly fine.

N G i understand u man, i have that same problem. Well Im now starting to find out who my tru self really is, and he's an ok dude. Im on Paxil right now. Its not like a miracle pill, but i guess it just puts u in a better frame of mind to deal wit problems that u wud normally freak out about u kno.
 

Noca

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Im not insulting him, I simply cannot read what he wrote and neither can most other people.
 
wtf about the paragraphs dude when r freakin lost, don't know what do do with r life trying to find some kind of help u don't think of PARAGRAPHS and if u didn't understand it then that could mean that r not intelligent enough, so wtf??? do u come to these forums and just try to get people down, maybe u r life sucks so much that u have to make me feel bad! seriously.. u actually made me feel better cause i SEE THEY'RE ARE MUCH MORE SICKER PEOPLE ON EARTH, SO THANK U!!! :D and for the record I'm a girl!
 
thanks for the support, but if u had something u really appreciated in r life (like funniness) AFTER A WHOLE LOTTA SHIT U'VE BEEN THREW, and then u just loose it cause of a stupid disease u just can't come to terms with it... like u have no imagination.. and it's killing me, but I really do appreciate r help.. and my problem isn't my funniness or lack of it, it's me trying to neglect my real problem that I have social phobia.. but I try confronting people but my imagination just won't kick up...
and I'm so incable that I think I won't be able to drive a car!! Xd
 

Lea

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Chained I think you firstly have to work on your attitude and when someone suggests you should improve something, then do it. You´re asking for help here but what kind of help do you think people can give you. Nobody´s going to solve your problems for you, we can only suggest things and that will necessarily mean you have to work on yourself. How do you want to do that if you tell off people giving you a well meant advice or pointing out something you should improve, being that only your style of writing? Btw. if you´re a female, why do you fool people by saying you´re a male in your profile. And if I can ask - are you a native english speaker? I can´t figure that out.
 
that guy did not mean help.. and if he did he would've said it in a better manner... and I never said I was a guy, u guys just assumed cause I put chained, but I put the name cause it totally describes me... sorry for the confusion... and about the english.. I use to live in the states.. but moved back to my home country a couple of years ago so u can say that it's my native language.. why do u ask, I think I'm writing pretty well... :D
 
I'm not really good with this stuff cause I wasn't on this for while, but I thought I put my gender as female, how do I change it? :D
 
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