Hello
Its my first time here, I am from Asia so I don't speak English very well. I hope you'll understand my English.
I am 27 years old, going to be 28 very soon. I know, to some extent I have some depression problem about life and anything. I've only worked for two company so far with less than 3 years working experience but I am getting old. I have accumulated up to 2 years for being unemployed. Now I have been unemployed for more than 6 months and I have not sent out ANY application letters or even looked at a recruitment website. I sleep late and get up late. However, I know I have problems and I am not happy now.
I know I hate society. I quitted the past two jobs not because of the salary but simply because I hate the people there and lots of unfairness that I receive. I had tried my best to endure the situation but I finally can't stand the fxcking upline staff anymore then I chose to quit.
I don't have any friends that I can keep long. Although I can make any friends easily, I can also break up with them very easily. I get angry very easily with people and I know it'll be a big obstacle to my future. Sometimes, I even know that it is completely stupid to get angry, but I simply can't be calm down.
For example, sometimes I can spend a whole day or two arguing with a person on a local internet forum that I have not even met in real life, with lots of foul language around until he stops. I know and I fully understand that it is a very stupid act but I simply can't control myself. I can't calm down.
By the way, I smoke, drink and I gamble. I have no friends, no girl friends, no money, living home with my parents. They are desperate and I am desperate too..... I want to find a job, but I have no confidence to interview .... and I have no confidence to interact peacefully with people in a company. I am now staying home every day, meaningless surfing around web, gambling on website, smoking, sometimes going out for prostitution alone. I just feel I want to end my life sometimes.
Please don't urge me to see a doctor at the moment, if I saw, I would not post a thread here. Thank you.
Its my first time here, I am from Asia so I don't speak English very well. I hope you'll understand my English.
I am 27 years old, going to be 28 very soon. I know, to some extent I have some depression problem about life and anything. I've only worked for two company so far with less than 3 years working experience but I am getting old. I have accumulated up to 2 years for being unemployed. Now I have been unemployed for more than 6 months and I have not sent out ANY application letters or even looked at a recruitment website. I sleep late and get up late. However, I know I have problems and I am not happy now.
I know I hate society. I quitted the past two jobs not because of the salary but simply because I hate the people there and lots of unfairness that I receive. I had tried my best to endure the situation but I finally can't stand the fxcking upline staff anymore then I chose to quit.
I don't have any friends that I can keep long. Although I can make any friends easily, I can also break up with them very easily. I get angry very easily with people and I know it'll be a big obstacle to my future. Sometimes, I even know that it is completely stupid to get angry, but I simply can't be calm down.
For example, sometimes I can spend a whole day or two arguing with a person on a local internet forum that I have not even met in real life, with lots of foul language around until he stops. I know and I fully understand that it is a very stupid act but I simply can't control myself. I can't calm down.
By the way, I smoke, drink and I gamble. I have no friends, no girl friends, no money, living home with my parents. They are desperate and I am desperate too..... I want to find a job, but I have no confidence to interview .... and I have no confidence to interact peacefully with people in a company. I am now staying home every day, meaningless surfing around web, gambling on website, smoking, sometimes going out for prostitution alone. I just feel I want to end my life sometimes.
Please don't urge me to see a doctor at the moment, if I saw, I would not post a thread here. Thank you.
Getting therapy for the anger management wouldn't hurt you, maybe later some time ? There's just 1 way to get a job though, go to a recruit site and just send your CV and cover letter to every job you might like without thinking what'll happen if they ask u for an interview. I'm in this stage too, and I'm not sending letters yet, but I know I'll have to just Do it otherwise I'l never get a job.
