2GreenEyes
New member
Hello everyone,
I'm Esther, 19 years old, from the Netherlands. I haven't been officially diagnosed with SA because I haven't spoken to a psychiatrist yet. But I'm pretty sure I do have SA.
I've felt something was 'wrong' with me for quite some time, and I started searching online for mental illnesses that would fit my symptoms. With some of them I used to think it might fit but when I stumbled upon the diagnosis SA it was the first time that I immediately felt 'this is about me'.
I get scared in a variety of social situations, and I avoid those situations very often even though I actually would like to go out and do stuff with other people and it's also interfering with my daily life because I live in a student home with 9 other people I don't know and we share the kitchen and bathroom and I'm scared to use those because of that..
Because of my SA I spend most of my time in my room behind my computer and have difficulty making friends. I do have some good friends, and I'm very happy with them.
But SA kind of causes me to be stuck and I'm not really able to change it on my own and in the main time I'm pretty much missing out on life.
And I started hating myself because of it, because I never dare to take on new things and do something with my life. And I feel that I'm a big disappointment to my parents.
I want to tell it to my parents, but I don't know if I can. Because it's very difficult for me to talk to them about problems and I'm scared how they might react and that they just think I'm overreacting..
I do want to try to solve my problem as soon as possible because I want life to be good again instead of **** and scary.
This forum sounds great and it's good to know I'm not alone, and from what I read you seem like such great, nice people and I think it'll really help me to be able to go to people that understand what I'm going through and if I can help anyone on here, that would be great to.
See you around
I'm Esther, 19 years old, from the Netherlands. I haven't been officially diagnosed with SA because I haven't spoken to a psychiatrist yet. But I'm pretty sure I do have SA.
I've felt something was 'wrong' with me for quite some time, and I started searching online for mental illnesses that would fit my symptoms. With some of them I used to think it might fit but when I stumbled upon the diagnosis SA it was the first time that I immediately felt 'this is about me'.
I get scared in a variety of social situations, and I avoid those situations very often even though I actually would like to go out and do stuff with other people and it's also interfering with my daily life because I live in a student home with 9 other people I don't know and we share the kitchen and bathroom and I'm scared to use those because of that..
Because of my SA I spend most of my time in my room behind my computer and have difficulty making friends. I do have some good friends, and I'm very happy with them.
But SA kind of causes me to be stuck and I'm not really able to change it on my own and in the main time I'm pretty much missing out on life.
And I started hating myself because of it, because I never dare to take on new things and do something with my life. And I feel that I'm a big disappointment to my parents.
I want to tell it to my parents, but I don't know if I can. Because it's very difficult for me to talk to them about problems and I'm scared how they might react and that they just think I'm overreacting..
I do want to try to solve my problem as soon as possible because I want life to be good again instead of **** and scary.
This forum sounds great and it's good to know I'm not alone, and from what I read you seem like such great, nice people and I think it'll really help me to be able to go to people that understand what I'm going through and if I can help anyone on here, that would be great to.
See you around
