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da_illest101

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So I have this neck injury that is currently stoping me from doing much. At the beginning of the month I challenged myself to only be able to use my mouse on my computer to have a morestricted use of my computer.

It worked until I found that i simply needed to copy paste the letters to make a word.
I don't really use the computer much thanks to my various attempt on using it less. I didn't have any huge craving on using my computer thanks to my phone, but sometimes I spend more time that I wanted or should. I have a major problem which is porn.

Unfortunately no matter what I do I always find a way going back to it, since it's my best defense against feeling the pain of SA and how my life suck. So I watch for hours while not letting my neck rest. When I finished I'm always mad at myself for not be able to control my need for porn. When you are able to watch porn without being in the mood or that you end up on it without realizing it, somethings needs to be done.

So now I'm thinking about going to the extreme and get my parents involve by making them strip me of my computer for a period of time so that I would propey heal and at the same time avoid watching things that I don't want to watch anymore, but cannot stop on my own power. The idea of being without a computer scares me since I spent the last 11 years hooked on it, but it really took a tole on my life and I just see things to get worse and worse. I know it would be insanely hard since I almost went insane just using a mouse, but what else can I do?

So what do you guys think I should do?
 
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Valhalla

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Sounds like you only got one option, although I would suggest you try out some other things before going to the extreme.
 
Canis lupus

Canis lupus

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I did the same thing with my cannabis addiction. One day just stopped cold turkey by not buying it anymore. The first 2 weeks were hell but after that it got much better. I still crave it sometimes but I'm really glad and proud of myself I took the plunge and was able to quit it. The most important thing is to replace it with other stuff, keep busy.
Whatever you decide to do I wish you the best of luck.
 
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da_illest101

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Well I tried a few stuff before: finding new things to do, trying my best to not go on it, only using a mouse no keyboard, a software called k9 protection to block adult content, having my sister to monitor me. In the end I always end up finding a way out. I have this injury for nearly a year and i'll never recover the way I live
 
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da_illest101

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Canis lupus said:
I did the same thing with my cannabis addiction. One day just stopped cold turkey by not buying it anymore. The first 2 weeks were hell but after that it got much better. I still crave it sometimes but I'm really glad and proud of myself I took the plunge and was able to quit it. The most important thing is to replace it with other stuff, keep busy.
Whatever you decide to do I wish you the best of luck.
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thanks, I trully think it's my only solution left sadly. How can someone has such a strong attachement to an object ::(:
 
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Valhalla

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da_illest101 said:
Well I tried a few stuff before: finding new things to do, trying my best to not go on it, only using a mouse no keyboard, a software called k9 protection to block adult content, having my sister to monitor me. In the end I always end up finding a way out. I have this injury for nearly a year and i'll never recover the way I live
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Hmm ... You've tried a lot. Maybe smack your face as hard as you can if you find yourself back there? (No joke) Alarm clocks? Or maybe just cut off the Internet connection?

I fully understand you, the reason why I'm thinking of other stuff then to actually remove the computer is that it seems to be one primary problem you have with it, and it wouldn't be fun to loose one of your interests because of it. Have you searched for some telephone number or site that handle this?
 
THeCARS1979

THeCARS1979

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da_illest101 said:
So I have this neck injury that is currently stoping me from doing much. At the beginning of the month I challenged myself to only be able to use my mouse on my computer to have a morestricted use of my computer.

It worked until I found that i simply needed to copy paste the letters to make a word.
I don't really use the computer much thanks to my various attempt on using it less. I didn't have any huge craving on using my computer thanks to my phone, but sometimes I spend more time that I wanted or should. I have a major problem which is porn.

Unfortunately no matter what I do I always find a way going back to it, since it's my best defense against feeling the pain of SA and how my life suck. So I watch for hours while not letting my neck rest. When I finished I'm always mad at myself for not be able to control my need for porn. When you are able to watch porn without being in the mood or that you end up on it without realizing it, somethings needs to be done.

So now I'm thinking about going to the extreme and get my parents involve by making them strip me of my computer for a period of time so that I would propey heal and at the same time avoid watching things that I don't want to watch anymore, but cannot stop on my own power. The idea of being without a computer scares me since I spent the last 11 years hooked on it, but it really took a tole on my life and I just see things to get worse and worse. I know it would be insanely hard since I almost went insane just using a mouse, but what else can I do?

So what do you guys think I should do?
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Tell them you cant go through with the leave interview if you cant. If you can go through it, do it.
 
Gaucho

Gaucho

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hey da_illest.

i know how difficult it is to get off porn, i wouldn't say I'm addicted, but when i got nothing to do, i know the feeling when you aren't able to resist, i also know how you feel when you say "reveal tension and SA". i just say to myself f uck this world and my life.
But when i have something to do, or I'm with another person, were the situation doesn't allow doesn't allow me to watch porn, i don't feel the need, i have no urge.

its the same with the computer, now when I'm lonely I'm sometimes the entire day on the computer!! but when I'm doing something i enjoy or were my mind is occupated, i don't even think about the PC.

i hope things get better for you in the future.
 
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da_illest101

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Valhalla said:
Hmm ... You've tried a lot. Maybe smack your face as hard as you can if you find yourself back there? (No joke) Alarm clocks? Or maybe just cut off the Internet connection?

I fully understand you, the reason why I'm thinking of other stuff then to actually remove the computer is that it seems to be one primary problem you have with it, and it wouldn't be fun to loose one of your interests because of it. Have you searched for some telephone number or site that handle this?
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No phone numbers, but I went on various site to get help and that was the final solution if nothing else will work.

I can do everything I need to do without the computer, the only thing is that it will not be very practical or as comfortable as I would hope. The only show I watch nowadays is wrestling and I can watch on tv instead of my computer. Plus there is two other computer in the house that I can use it's just that there is always someone nearby.

I just want to lose the habit of excessive computer usage, at the very least until my neck gets better
 
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da_illest101

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Gaucho said:
hey da_illest.

i know how difficult it is to get off porn, i wouldn't say I'm addicted, but when i got nothing to do, i know the feeling when you aren't able to resist, i also know how you feel when you say "reveal tension and SA". i just say to myself f uck this world and my life.
But when i have something to do, or I'm with another person, were the situation doesn't allow doesn't allow me to watch porn, i don't feel the need, i have no urge.

its the same with the computer, now when I'm lonely I'm sometimes the entire day on the computer!! but when I'm doing something i enjoy or were my mind is occupated, i don't even think about the PC.

i hope things get better for you in the future.
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Well I spend all my time alone, though I realize that I do more when I have no other option then not using the pc
 
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Valhalla

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It looks like you've tried everything, so only one thing remains now. Maybe there aren't going to be any posts here for a while? ::(:

I really hope it will work out for you, and that the neck will be better. You got more discipline and willpower then me for just considering this. :)
 
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da_illest101

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Valhalla said:
It looks like you've tried everything, so only one thing remains now. Maybe there aren't going to be any posts here for a while? ::(:

I really hope it will work out for you, and that the neck will be better. You got more discipline and willpower then me for just considering this. :)
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Thanks a lot, I'm using my phone to write on the forums, I haven't used my computer to type one message here in weeks
 
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