froghat
Well-known member
Ok, here we go again........ I'm a route person for a chip company and everytime I see this girl who works at one of the grocery stores I deliver to, I go crazy! I have a huge crush on her and would love to make friends with her, but I have no ability to develop a relationship. Granted, I only see her once every 3 or weeks, so that makes it tougher, but it wouldn't matter if I saw her everyday. I have no flow to my social skills. Everything seems so fake to me and my confidence kills anything I do manage to say or do.
I'm getting to the point where I actually prefer not to run across anyone like this, so I don't get even more depressed. Now, everytime I see her, I just feel like crap. Nothing ever changes. The same problems I have now, I had when I was in high school. Actually I've been socially awkward since birth!
Living alone is horrible, but I feel so socially retarded around people I feel just as bad. How do I get better at this when I have no clue how to do it? Ever since boirth I've been avoiding people due to brain chemistry.
It just feels like a vicious cycle with no solution in site. I spent 2 years in therapy and it did jack shi*. I take medication, but that only goes so far. I'm 28 with zero confidence. When you're a guy with no confidence, you might as well drive off a cliff.
Oh well, I guess it's another 50 years of awkward conversations, no confidence, no girlfriend and lonely nights. Does anyone feel as hopeless as me?
I'm getting to the point where I actually prefer not to run across anyone like this, so I don't get even more depressed. Now, everytime I see her, I just feel like crap. Nothing ever changes. The same problems I have now, I had when I was in high school. Actually I've been socially awkward since birth!
Living alone is horrible, but I feel so socially retarded around people I feel just as bad. How do I get better at this when I have no clue how to do it? Ever since boirth I've been avoiding people due to brain chemistry.
It just feels like a vicious cycle with no solution in site. I spent 2 years in therapy and it did jack shi*. I take medication, but that only goes so far. I'm 28 with zero confidence. When you're a guy with no confidence, you might as well drive off a cliff.
Oh well, I guess it's another 50 years of awkward conversations, no confidence, no girlfriend and lonely nights. Does anyone feel as hopeless as me?