DazedNConfused
Well-known member
Well, I was doing pretty good in the last few weeks, without much negative thoughts, but ive began wondering if my anxiety is deserved? Maybe I don't say the right things to people (I always have a knack for comming across as either stupid, arrogant, or both, ppl have told me I state the obvious too much) and this has caused so much rejection that the anxiety started kicking in?
Sometimes I think I have to just own up to the reality that im unattractive (inside and out, and its not just in my head, there is a lot of evidence pointing in this direction), and that my only choices are to be alone out here (or wherever else I decide to move), or move back home into my socially limited bubble (which would mean giving up a decent career, which I probably didnt even earn, maybe the boss just felt sorry for me, would probably also go back to being a pot-head, to deal with the failure).
I had such high hopes for myself when I moved out here, but right now, I just dunno.
I talk on here like I know the solution, but in reality, im lost myself.
Sometimes I think I have to just own up to the reality that im unattractive (inside and out, and its not just in my head, there is a lot of evidence pointing in this direction), and that my only choices are to be alone out here (or wherever else I decide to move), or move back home into my socially limited bubble (which would mean giving up a decent career, which I probably didnt even earn, maybe the boss just felt sorry for me, would probably also go back to being a pot-head, to deal with the failure).
I had such high hopes for myself when I moved out here, but right now, I just dunno.
I talk on here like I know the solution, but in reality, im lost myself.