Elenwen
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Aaaargh, I feel awful because I have no job--I feel guilty and embarrassed and miserable. I've decided that I'm tired of feeling like I'm mooching off everyone around me, and I'm tired of, when anyone asks me what I do for a living, I give the half-answer of "I'm a housewife." That doesn't fly very well in this age, it seems, especially as I have no kids of my own and I'm not really married, just living with my boyfriend. I feel like as soon as someone finds out I'm unemployed, I turn into a nobody--my opinion doesn't matter and everyone thinks I'm just a freeloader. Obviously I don't know if that's how people REALLY feel, but I do know that it's how I feel. Also, we need the extra money and I need health insurance desperately. So I need a job. There are a few problems with me getting a job though.
1) I'm 21 and the extent of my experience is a three-month stint at Wal-Mart and occasional dog-watching.
2) I have no references, and no one to ask to be my reference.
3) The job market here is relatively bad, though I have found a billiards place advertising for a night job (1 am to 9am) which sounds promising, and a pizza place that doesn't sound as promising, and a couple of customer service jobs that sound even less promising.
4) I don't have a driver's license, and most of the jobs I'm finding are not on the bus routes/need a license to even be considered. The reason the billiards place sounds so promising is that my boyfriend could easily drop me off/pick me up. I can't get a license any time soon because I don't even know how to drive, and because I can't get to the class that you have to take to get your permit, and because we don't have the MONEY for me to do any of it.
5) I don't have a phone for them to call me/for me to call them, and even if I did I don't know if I would answer with my phobia of phones.
6) Whenever I even THINK about actually having a job, rather than feeling excited and hopeful like a lot of people seem to, I have mild panic attacks, and if I start to think about what I would have to do to GET the job, and to think about what I would have to DO at a job, the mild panic attacks turn into major panic attacks.
Does anyone have any advice?
1) I'm 21 and the extent of my experience is a three-month stint at Wal-Mart and occasional dog-watching.
2) I have no references, and no one to ask to be my reference.
3) The job market here is relatively bad, though I have found a billiards place advertising for a night job (1 am to 9am) which sounds promising, and a pizza place that doesn't sound as promising, and a couple of customer service jobs that sound even less promising.
4) I don't have a driver's license, and most of the jobs I'm finding are not on the bus routes/need a license to even be considered. The reason the billiards place sounds so promising is that my boyfriend could easily drop me off/pick me up. I can't get a license any time soon because I don't even know how to drive, and because I can't get to the class that you have to take to get your permit, and because we don't have the MONEY for me to do any of it.
5) I don't have a phone for them to call me/for me to call them, and even if I did I don't know if I would answer with my phobia of phones.
6) Whenever I even THINK about actually having a job, rather than feeling excited and hopeful like a lot of people seem to, I have mild panic attacks, and if I start to think about what I would have to do to GET the job, and to think about what I would have to DO at a job, the mild panic attacks turn into major panic attacks.
Does anyone have any advice?