BornAgain
Well-known member
Hey everyone, I haven't posted a new topic here for a while, but right now I need help/support. Don't read this whole post if you're one of those people who get too lazy to respond to long posts (hey, sometimes I do that to!), but just skim through it and get the jist of it, because I NEED HELP!!!!!
So yeah, I am looking for a job, applying here and there, but I fucking hate it. I don't think I have SA, but my only problem is I can't make eye contact with people, and how in the hell are you supposed get hired anywhere if you don't even look at people when they talk to you or you talk to them? I'm sure some of you people have this same problem, but this shit is ruining my life. I've lost friends and such because of this crap, and I used to be normal without this "problem" about 3/4 of a year ago.
I just wanna know, to anyone who has this problem (even if you don't), what kind of job do you have and by what means did you obtain it? Everyone needs a job, but right now I feel like some kinda freak who's going to end up homeless because he never looks at people in the eye.
I hate eye contact damnit. Everytime I make it, people look at me fucking weirdly, and they stare as if I were some sort of insane mental patient, and I must say, it is driving me insane! What the fuck happened to me that, almost a year ago, turned me from a normal person to one on the verge of insanity?
Damn, every time I dare make the effort to make eye contact, it creates the most fucking awkward moment you could imagine. I'm not even a bad looking person, by some peoples standards, I am even considered hot! So why in the fucking hell do people look at me so fucking strangely? Fuck, everytime I force myself to look at someone while they're talking to me, I have an answer to their "speech" formulated before they're halfway done and I announce it before they finish they're last couple of words, which creates an even more awkward situation! I've also noticed that when people realize that I don't make eye-contact, then they generally seem very uneasy about making eye-contact with me, which is a HUGE problem with my family and friends who have realized I don't make eye-contact MONTHS ago!
The only time I make eye contact with people is if I am being aggressive, or when I'm pissed off at someone, because looking away makes you look like a pussy, and it is a form of submission.. I was no fucking pussy before this eye-contact dillema, and I sure as hell ain't no damn pussy now.!
Fuck, fuck, fuckitty, fuck fuck, fuck! Sorry about the cursing people, but I guess I'm venting little, and I'm in due for some venting!
I need a job, I need money, and I need to identify and stop whatever causes all these awkward situations.
How do I get a job? I want to work as a waiter or something, so I can "practice" and get over this eye contact thing, but every time I try I just fuck up and then lose hope. I've had 2 jobs before, my first one before this crap happened to me. The second one really sucked ass because there were cool people there that I could've been really chill with before this crap, but I couldn't because, well, I never looked at their faces, thus, never talked to them.
Not saying I'm going to kill myself, but, having a seemingly permenant awkward life sometimes makes me want to! I would also like to note that since my life consists of constant eye aversion, my neck gets and usually always is extremely stiff and sore beause I just look straight; either ahead, or down on the ground, where ever there aren't any faces.
Somebody please help, I'm young, moderately attractive, and I have very high goals and dreams. I am going to start going to community college in april (I dropped out of my senior high school year), and I would really like to meet new friends and get along with teachers and such, and I would also like to be able to concentrate on my studies without this fucking shit clouding my thoughts.
So yeah, I am looking for a job, applying here and there, but I fucking hate it. I don't think I have SA, but my only problem is I can't make eye contact with people, and how in the hell are you supposed get hired anywhere if you don't even look at people when they talk to you or you talk to them? I'm sure some of you people have this same problem, but this shit is ruining my life. I've lost friends and such because of this crap, and I used to be normal without this "problem" about 3/4 of a year ago.
I just wanna know, to anyone who has this problem (even if you don't), what kind of job do you have and by what means did you obtain it? Everyone needs a job, but right now I feel like some kinda freak who's going to end up homeless because he never looks at people in the eye.
I hate eye contact damnit. Everytime I make it, people look at me fucking weirdly, and they stare as if I were some sort of insane mental patient, and I must say, it is driving me insane! What the fuck happened to me that, almost a year ago, turned me from a normal person to one on the verge of insanity?
Damn, every time I dare make the effort to make eye contact, it creates the most fucking awkward moment you could imagine. I'm not even a bad looking person, by some peoples standards, I am even considered hot! So why in the fucking hell do people look at me so fucking strangely? Fuck, everytime I force myself to look at someone while they're talking to me, I have an answer to their "speech" formulated before they're halfway done and I announce it before they finish they're last couple of words, which creates an even more awkward situation! I've also noticed that when people realize that I don't make eye-contact, then they generally seem very uneasy about making eye-contact with me, which is a HUGE problem with my family and friends who have realized I don't make eye-contact MONTHS ago!
The only time I make eye contact with people is if I am being aggressive, or when I'm pissed off at someone, because looking away makes you look like a pussy, and it is a form of submission.. I was no fucking pussy before this eye-contact dillema, and I sure as hell ain't no damn pussy now.!
Fuck, fuck, fuckitty, fuck fuck, fuck! Sorry about the cursing people, but I guess I'm venting little, and I'm in due for some venting!
I need a job, I need money, and I need to identify and stop whatever causes all these awkward situations.
How do I get a job? I want to work as a waiter or something, so I can "practice" and get over this eye contact thing, but every time I try I just fuck up and then lose hope. I've had 2 jobs before, my first one before this crap happened to me. The second one really sucked ass because there were cool people there that I could've been really chill with before this crap, but I couldn't because, well, I never looked at their faces, thus, never talked to them.
Not saying I'm going to kill myself, but, having a seemingly permenant awkward life sometimes makes me want to! I would also like to note that since my life consists of constant eye aversion, my neck gets and usually always is extremely stiff and sore beause I just look straight; either ahead, or down on the ground, where ever there aren't any faces.
Somebody please help, I'm young, moderately attractive, and I have very high goals and dreams. I am going to start going to community college in april (I dropped out of my senior high school year), and I would really like to meet new friends and get along with teachers and such, and I would also like to be able to concentrate on my studies without this fucking shit clouding my thoughts.