cowboyup
Well-known member
This past week felt like I spent it in purgatory. And next week doesn't look too sunny either.
Well, it felt that way. Looking at Wikipedia's definition as being 'temporary punishment' I suppose it's fitting.
..punishment for what, IDK.
Sure was not place of purification, lol!
My anxiety, panic attacks and sad/lonely feelings were haunting me this past week, along with hectic kid schedule, the SIL was OK but late coming home from work a couple times (over an hour late both times -but she called), then feeling like I had to get the house clean for SIL's g-parents who are due to arrive tomorrow (Sunday) and staying a week. Plus the icing on the cake was that this is in the middle of me trying to ween myself off the anti-depressant and PMS. Double the fun...woo hoo. I was even snarky and short tempered to the kids...
And I know the source of my mini-breakdown: SIL's g-parents visiting. They are very nice people, etc. but this means it will put a crimp in my usual 'kid' routine during the week. Yeah, yeah, I know - not a big deal!
For me I get frustrated when my routine gets interrupted.
See, the SIL and brother both will be working during the week, they can't get time off, g-parents know this, which means I will be the one 'entertaining' them during the day whilst taking care of the kids. Which of course leads into idle chit chat, the g-ma will take over the kitchen while she prepares food and asking where things are, dirtying up dishes, the g-pa will be passed out on the couch, napping half the day due to boredom (can't blame him) the kids will be either screaming, crying, etc.
Then SIL will stumble home, just in time for dinner with the g-parents, and an hour with her kids then bedtime. Rinse and repeat for rest of the week.
Good News is that I just need this week to get through which leads into SPRING BREAK!! Not only for me and college but for SIL. At which time her father is coming to visit after the g-parents leave, and they (brother, SIL, her dad and the kids) are planning some big hiking trip WITH THE KIDS!!
That means I will have the whole house to myself, KID FREE, no household chores to do, I can walk around naked if I want to!
And I must breathe a sigh of relief that their new SUV has NO room for a third person in the back, so they can't wrangle me into 'going on the trip'
hehe....
erfect:
Do you ever feel put out by an interruption in your routine? How do you manage to cope better?
Side note: I know I mentioned that I feel like I need to clean the house, etc. No it is not my job to do it and NO I didn't get to it, just kept up regular vacuuming, dusting, laundry and dishes, nothing extra this time!! Reason I feel I need to is because these people seem so da.mn slobbish. lol
SIL just keeps buying books (she has a pile of about 10 just lying around in different places - she buys a lot of 'stuff') and the mail gets piled up, along with kid crap everywhere...really gets to me when others can't pick up after themselves...is that just me?
OY...then this morning the dog had another seizure. I felt bad as the vet said there's nothing we can do; and I was upstairs, putting together an intricate Lego robot for my nephew and SIL yelled for me to come downstairs...she panicked cuz the dog was having a seizure. She freaked and started to cry, then she goes "what do I do, what do I do"...I told her the vet told us to just let him do his thing, not to get close because he might snap at you or the kids...Funny how extremely calm I am in emergency yet everyday stuff ruffles my feathers...anyhow, she cries and told me to call my brother. He wakes up, frustrated of course, and repeated what I said, then that lead into both kids finding their way in my room for a couple hours, because by the time the poor dog finished with seizure, it was time for everyone to shower...then I get "can you, by chance, watch the kids while I shower, pump?"
OK, last part was venting.
Well, it felt that way. Looking at Wikipedia's definition as being 'temporary punishment' I suppose it's fitting.
..punishment for what, IDK.
Sure was not place of purification, lol!
My anxiety, panic attacks and sad/lonely feelings were haunting me this past week, along with hectic kid schedule, the SIL was OK but late coming home from work a couple times (over an hour late both times -but she called), then feeling like I had to get the house clean for SIL's g-parents who are due to arrive tomorrow (Sunday) and staying a week. Plus the icing on the cake was that this is in the middle of me trying to ween myself off the anti-depressant and PMS. Double the fun...woo hoo. I was even snarky and short tempered to the kids...
And I know the source of my mini-breakdown: SIL's g-parents visiting. They are very nice people, etc. but this means it will put a crimp in my usual 'kid' routine during the week. Yeah, yeah, I know - not a big deal!
For me I get frustrated when my routine gets interrupted.
See, the SIL and brother both will be working during the week, they can't get time off, g-parents know this, which means I will be the one 'entertaining' them during the day whilst taking care of the kids. Which of course leads into idle chit chat, the g-ma will take over the kitchen while she prepares food and asking where things are, dirtying up dishes, the g-pa will be passed out on the couch, napping half the day due to boredom (can't blame him) the kids will be either screaming, crying, etc.
Then SIL will stumble home, just in time for dinner with the g-parents, and an hour with her kids then bedtime. Rinse and repeat for rest of the week.
Good News is that I just need this week to get through which leads into SPRING BREAK!! Not only for me and college but for SIL. At which time her father is coming to visit after the g-parents leave, and they (brother, SIL, her dad and the kids) are planning some big hiking trip WITH THE KIDS!!
That means I will have the whole house to myself, KID FREE, no household chores to do, I can walk around naked if I want to!
And I must breathe a sigh of relief that their new SUV has NO room for a third person in the back, so they can't wrangle me into 'going on the trip'
hehe....
erfect:Do you ever feel put out by an interruption in your routine? How do you manage to cope better?
Side note: I know I mentioned that I feel like I need to clean the house, etc. No it is not my job to do it and NO I didn't get to it, just kept up regular vacuuming, dusting, laundry and dishes, nothing extra this time!! Reason I feel I need to is because these people seem so da.mn slobbish. lol
SIL just keeps buying books (she has a pile of about 10 just lying around in different places - she buys a lot of 'stuff') and the mail gets piled up, along with kid crap everywhere...really gets to me when others can't pick up after themselves...is that just me?
OY...then this morning the dog had another seizure. I felt bad as the vet said there's nothing we can do; and I was upstairs, putting together an intricate Lego robot for my nephew and SIL yelled for me to come downstairs...she panicked cuz the dog was having a seizure. She freaked and started to cry, then she goes "what do I do, what do I do"...I told her the vet told us to just let him do his thing, not to get close because he might snap at you or the kids...Funny how extremely calm I am in emergency yet everyday stuff ruffles my feathers...anyhow, she cries and told me to call my brother. He wakes up, frustrated of course, and repeated what I said, then that lead into both kids finding their way in my room for a couple hours, because by the time the poor dog finished with seizure, it was time for everyone to shower...then I get "can you, by chance, watch the kids while I shower, pump?"
OK, last part was venting.