i dare myself
Hey all, i feel that i am on the verge of breaking out of the metal box my mind has been in for the past 19 years, and one of the things that has helped has been pushing/forcing myself to do things, and over the past year i have been reading more and more books on the teachings of zen, dont get me wrong i still relapse occasionally, where i dont want to do ANYTHING and i hate my self and my looks, my life, and all the rest, but it passes, eventually. Basically i dont think id be where i am now if i had'nt pushed myself to go out/ phone people/ make eye contact, i call it daring myself, i dare myself and if i dont do it i call myself a chicken, mad eh.. then i tell myself to forget about it and let the memory go, good or bad, dont hold on. REMEMBER, THE PAST HAS ALREADY GONE, THE PRESENT IS BUT A FLEETING MOMENT, AND THE FUTURE HASNT YET HAPPENED, i think of this in terms of seconds, not days. As you read it, it is future, present, now its past......xxxxxxx :wink: