Anubis
Well-known member
Just curious, how do you find the courage to contemplate it? I'm a social phobe myself and by definition that means I'm a a very fearful person. I hate exposing myself to anything unknown. In my worst periods, I could literally stay in my room for 2 straight months during the summer just so I could avoid the fear of unsuspected criticism.
Now criticism is understandably very scary because you're not exactly sure how you'll get exposed to it. But death is just as bad, because NO ONE truly physically knows what the mind goes through once one passes away. It's pretty much one of the most "un-explored" frontiers of human existence. Once you "cross that plane", your pretty much on your own. Will you continue living? Will you stop existing? And how painful are any of these outcomes? Etc. That's why I personally have never contemplated suicide any of my episodes. Sure, I get really depressed and want to shut myself away from people, but I never think to myself "I need to k1ll myself". For me it just requires WAY TOO much courage to go through (contrary to popular belief, suicide is not for pussies). And if I'm that courageous then I would use that for something stimulating like coming out of SA'ness, heh.
Yea, I'm kinda relaying my opinion about the whole subject after the question so hopefully that doesn't come off as judgemental. But I'm genuinely curious about your thought process.
Now criticism is understandably very scary because you're not exactly sure how you'll get exposed to it. But death is just as bad, because NO ONE truly physically knows what the mind goes through once one passes away. It's pretty much one of the most "un-explored" frontiers of human existence. Once you "cross that plane", your pretty much on your own. Will you continue living? Will you stop existing? And how painful are any of these outcomes? Etc. That's why I personally have never contemplated suicide any of my episodes. Sure, I get really depressed and want to shut myself away from people, but I never think to myself "I need to k1ll myself". For me it just requires WAY TOO much courage to go through (contrary to popular belief, suicide is not for pussies). And if I'm that courageous then I would use that for something stimulating like coming out of SA'ness, heh.
Yea, I'm kinda relaying my opinion about the whole subject after the question so hopefully that doesn't come off as judgemental. But I'm genuinely curious about your thought process.