Cal
Well-known member
I have a problem identifying where I fit in. I've always had problems with anxiety and nervousness, but not to the point that I was a total outcast. The last week or so has been tough and I've been feeling down which prompted me to join this site.
So I have a full time job and I work with a lot of outgoing and funny people. I get on with most of them pretty well and we all enjoy laughing about stupid things and cracking jokes, occasionally making fun of each other, etc. But I feel somewhat alienated due to me having problems. (and to be more specific, abandoncy issues from my childhood.) I fear I can't really make them aware of my problems, due to my social status, if you wanna call it that.
On the other hand, I've tried having conversations with people who do have problems, hoping that I might be able to share my grief and be able to help someone out in return, but I usually always get shut down. I don't know if it's because I get along with most people and therefore viewed as intimidating by some, or if I'm just no good projecting good body language and come across as insincere. In any case, the more popular people don't seem to notice, and I actually get on with them a whole lot more.
I basically feel stuck in the middle, it's like I don't have any proper friends I can trust to share everything with, and therefore can't express myself fully to anyone. Does anyone have similar experiences or advice the can share with me? If so, it'd be most appreciated.
So I have a full time job and I work with a lot of outgoing and funny people. I get on with most of them pretty well and we all enjoy laughing about stupid things and cracking jokes, occasionally making fun of each other, etc. But I feel somewhat alienated due to me having problems. (and to be more specific, abandoncy issues from my childhood.) I fear I can't really make them aware of my problems, due to my social status, if you wanna call it that.
On the other hand, I've tried having conversations with people who do have problems, hoping that I might be able to share my grief and be able to help someone out in return, but I usually always get shut down. I don't know if it's because I get along with most people and therefore viewed as intimidating by some, or if I'm just no good projecting good body language and come across as insincere. In any case, the more popular people don't seem to notice, and I actually get on with them a whole lot more.
I basically feel stuck in the middle, it's like I don't have any proper friends I can trust to share everything with, and therefore can't express myself fully to anyone. Does anyone have similar experiences or advice the can share with me? If so, it'd be most appreciated.