first time going to seek help.. any advice?

[Collar]

thanks Gunman, thank you so much for boosting up my confidence, you can't imagine what a huge positive effect your words have on me

unfortunately there might be some bad news, I'm afraid, this time regarding the side effects, now after taking two pills since last night

the thing is I already have a problem in my chest that doesn't make breathing as smooth as in being completely normal.. not an asthma, it's something that could be neurotic but we're unsure about yet

so yesterday when I took one of the pills I felt dizziness and my breathing gone worse.. I immediately shutdown my computer and went to bed.. I felt my mouth dry in and during the morning but the other things have settled down

so I'm not so sure I should continue with the meds, it's fear more than anything else.. it seems I can avoid these side effects by taking the pill right before I go to bed.. nevertheless, the fear is still justified in my case I think..

even though there is a chance that the discomfort I feel today has nothing to do with the pills I'm taking, I'm still quite scared of having my especially breathing issue going worse.. I can't mentally afford worrying about my mental and physical problems both in the same time

I won't be able to go back seeing the doc until next week.. IDK however if he has anything to say about this.. I can only think of asking him for meds that don't have side effects if such things do exist.. my physical condition is not going away IDK for how long but I have been in the same spot for months.. yet I don't want to close this door because I'll otherwise become defenseless in front of depression.. I don't want either to take my chances on my health account.. confused

I need advice here please? do you think my fears are irrational or is it wiser to stop the meds for now?

 

[Section_31]

I say continue the meds, but do it at night before you go to bed so the side effects arent as pronounced. I take mine right before i go to bed, but, having said that, im no doctor and im not on the same medication as you. My doctor warned me i wold feel strange when i took mine for the first while, and to just hang on, that it would pass. In my case it did but i didnt have breathing problems.

Your the best judge of your body, if it feels like its getting worse, after say a day or so, or not getting any better, than i would stop. In my case all i had was bad brain fog and i couldnt think properly. Thinking isnt always essential depending on what your doing, your ability to breathe is.

Keep us posted !

 

[Collar]

This is not easy for me.. I want to keep on taking the meds and I know that's going to help me and it would make me proud and everything.. but I do not think it's the right thing to do

what I felt could be for any reason.. varying blood pressure could trigger by itself alot of symptoms.. could be a brain thing.. could be a breathing related thing.. I've read in the list of side effects it can decrease the sugar level in blood.. I don't know how everything is affecting everything.. but I had some troubles because of the meds for sure, so I guess I have now a plausible reason to go see the doc again and explain to him why I decided to not take the meds

I need to keep my breathing problem under observation, and having a new drugs with significant side effects in my body doesn't make it easy to guess what does really affect my condition

I feel bad about it, not quite sure of what I have to do, it's not easy to tell if I'm fooling myself because I'm just scared of some little symptoms (though not being able to breath normally is not so little..)

then I rethink again: I know for sure that if I hadn't this breathing problem I would have continued taking the meds.

I am being honest about my excuse.. isn't that enough?

thanks Gunman, even though this is not exactly your preference your input helped me thinking

so back to square zero again

 

[Section_31]

Hey Collar,

Dont feel bad at all about your choice. Frankly i dont blame you one bit, its quite unsettling when your having issues breathing. It could be this just isnt the medication for you. Your donig the right thing gonig to your doctor about it. dont give up. This is NOT a failure, you have NOT failed, you just found a way that didnt work for you. That does NOT constitute failure. lots of people have to go through multiple medications before finding the right one. Some get lucky, others dont.

You'll find your way . Dont give up.

 

[Collar]

I cried at the psychiatrist office

this is the first time someone sees me crying

I'm still in semi denial, I don't believe it happened

I have been in severe depression for a while now, a few weeks.. this day was rough.. I don't know if it's any difference from the other days though.. they all seem alike with depression

I tried to go seeing him in the morning but he wasn't there and I was told I should come back later.. so did I, this afternoon.. even before I enter his office, when I was wandering around the place, I felt like crying.. but I was in control of my tears.. then I walked in to the office, sat down and everything was normal.. after a few minuets we were discussing the meds he gave me, I just started crying and my eyes were full of tears

it wasn't just shedding a few tears, I never was this weak before.. I can't even say it was embarrassing or something, I don't actually know how to describe it because it's the first time ever happening

what else to say? I've seen him and he told me to continue the meds, and that I can if necessary take half a dose for a while then increase it to it's normal

I don't know what else to say....