cadaver_
Well-known member
Don't have the will to live anymore. I'm 32, can't connect deeply with people, self-conscious walking down the street, feel inferior around everyone, have suicidal thoughts all the time, and sleep just to escape this emotional torture I'm feeling daily.
People always say "oh don't do it, you have so much to live for." Really? Nothing is getting better. I'm on anti-depression medication that isn't working for me at all. I'm jealous of everyone I see that's enjoying life with their friends (this summer is going to be torture). My doctor said to get outside more because isolating myself will make my depression worse. Well, so far I've felt worse going outside and seeing people enjoying their lives. I get so jealous I want to return home so I don't have to see it. The only thing that makes me feel relief anymore is sleeping and my fantasies of suicide.
People always say "oh don't do it, you have so much to live for." Really? Nothing is getting better. I'm on anti-depression medication that isn't working for me at all. I'm jealous of everyone I see that's enjoying life with their friends (this summer is going to be torture). My doctor said to get outside more because isolating myself will make my depression worse. Well, so far I've felt worse going outside and seeing people enjoying their lives. I get so jealous I want to return home so I don't have to see it. The only thing that makes me feel relief anymore is sleeping and my fantasies of suicide.