this_portrait
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Seems like I just don't get all that anxious much anymore in social situations (or in general, for that matter). If I do feel anxiety, it's such a small amount that I don't even notice it. I wonder if doing extracurricular work for the campus paper is the reason for this disappearance.
On the other hand, when I'm interacting with my peers or discussing in classes, it's a bit different. I'm sort of quiet, but I speak out a lot more than I used to. After the fact, though, I start thinking worried thoughts like, 'Oh, God, what if I came off as a complete moron? What if I said the wrong thing?' I don't dwell on it for too long because I prefer to not think about it too much, but the paranoid SA thoughts still pop up after the interaction. I suppose it's better than having them come up before and then preventing me from saying anything at all.
I've also been chewing on my fingers a lot more lately, and even biting my nails, something I rarely do, so I think anxiety has manifested itself in that action. I do this in private, because I don't want to catch other people's nasty germs, especially lately. I hate that I'm biting my nails, though. I keep trying to grow them somewhat so I can paint them (and thus keep them away from my mouth).
Yeah... My mental health has been doing some wonky sh*te lately.
On the other hand, when I'm interacting with my peers or discussing in classes, it's a bit different. I'm sort of quiet, but I speak out a lot more than I used to. After the fact, though, I start thinking worried thoughts like, 'Oh, God, what if I came off as a complete moron? What if I said the wrong thing?' I don't dwell on it for too long because I prefer to not think about it too much, but the paranoid SA thoughts still pop up after the interaction. I suppose it's better than having them come up before and then preventing me from saying anything at all.
I've also been chewing on my fingers a lot more lately, and even biting my nails, something I rarely do, so I think anxiety has manifested itself in that action. I do this in private, because I don't want to catch other people's nasty germs, especially lately. I hate that I'm biting my nails, though. I keep trying to grow them somewhat so I can paint them (and thus keep them away from my mouth).
Yeah... My mental health has been doing some wonky sh*te lately.
