Feeling Worthless Tonight

[Tab]

Well the title says it all. Kinda came out of no where. I was on msn and one of my friends told me another good friend of ours was moving across the country for RCMP training. It made me think that while everyone is putting together the rest of their lives, I've got no plan. I'm at a dead end. Ya I'm going to school but for what? My grades aren't good, I've got no skills, so wtf am I supposed to do?

Anyway, I'm just really depressed right now and I broke my week and a day sober streak. The more I drink, the more it was worth it

 

[Klaus]

I can relate to you. All my old friends are having the most sucessfull life ever. I'm just stuck.

 

[Duder456]

I always used to google my friends from high school to see if any of them did anything interesting with their lives since I hadn't seen them since then (like 7 years) and never found anything really. When I got back in contact with them they all still hang out together and work meaningless jobs at bars and offices but they're happy with it I guess.

Don't sweat it too much, a lot of people with and without SA are in the same spot. I don't think a job defines who you are. :?

 

[Lexmark]

I couldnt care less what there doing
coz 9/10 times if i was doing it i would fukin hate it anyway

 

[A_Void_Ant]

At least you have a little circle of friends from the way you put it. I've got no friends.

Shit, though, as long as I'm not feeling the anxiety of using stupid I.M. programs and phones, I don't mind being friendless at all. It's the lack of a girlfriend that's killing me.

 

[tuxtux]

Ya I'm going to school but for what? My grades aren't good, I've got no skills, so wtf am I supposed to do?

What do you want to do? At what level of education are you now - university? Do you like what you are studying?
What are you interested in? You could try to get a little part-time job in that field. You'll learn a lot there, and extra cash is always good.

As for your friends - well... don't compare yourself to other people. They might be more successful than you now, but you can still pick up on it and do great things, and there's no use comparing yourself to them. Everyone is different, everyone's career is different, and who cares if you need a bit more time to find out what you really want?

 

[Richey]

my sister all five of my cousins of similar age are more then blooming in their careers and earning alot in their chosen fields, add to that they are traveling and two are free lancing on the side, they then juggle that with going out most nights a week. most have mortgages on houses too ....

everyone in my family is a success, so because im lagging behind a little i never hear the end of it, negative conversation from mum like "Dont you feel jeolous that they are off living such exciting lives and you're still figuring out your career and earning not alot"? and constant lectures from dad ...

it feels like i'm stuck in a nightmare where everyone i know is pointing and laughing at me ....

everyone keeps saying "girls wont want to know you unless you have a job" even though they know im studying full time ...which in a sense is true at my age, but as if thats the soul reason you fall for a person., im hearing lots of cliched "duhh" comments like this being thrown at me daily, its not easy.

i'm definately seeing a school therapist once the year starts again

the pressures and responsibilities of growing up as an adult and whats expected of myself to meet new people and to earn a decent wage is getting to me