no1
Banned
I'm afraid of going to the store. Any store.. for fear of people thinking I am unworthy of spending money, or even just unworthy of living. To buy groceries. To buy clothes.
I feel like I should live like a peasant amongst people, and spend as little as possible. I don't make my own money, I go to school, I've had insomnia for a long time. I'm a stupid vegetarian. to eat at a public place. or just to get food in general seems like with the economy the way it is, everything seems just so expensive nowadays. I've made it so that I spend less money than a meat eater as a vegetarian.... but still. just to go through the hassle, I think people judge me as unworthy of anything, anywhere I go. Taking a walk, exercising outside.
I guess I just want to know Im worth something but nothing shows me I am. I can't think of a reason why I'm worthy of anything. I have no friends, nobody to tell me I exist for a reason, or that I am worth anything. If I come up with reasons myself, it doesn't mean anything to me. I need it from someone else. I am not included in this "society" as a "social" being, integrated in society. I am not included in anyone's life other than my parents. Thus what worth do I have?
I feel like I should live like a peasant amongst people, and spend as little as possible. I don't make my own money, I go to school, I've had insomnia for a long time. I'm a stupid vegetarian. to eat at a public place. or just to get food in general seems like with the economy the way it is, everything seems just so expensive nowadays. I've made it so that I spend less money than a meat eater as a vegetarian.... but still. just to go through the hassle, I think people judge me as unworthy of anything, anywhere I go. Taking a walk, exercising outside.
I guess I just want to know Im worth something but nothing shows me I am. I can't think of a reason why I'm worthy of anything. I have no friends, nobody to tell me I exist for a reason, or that I am worth anything. If I come up with reasons myself, it doesn't mean anything to me. I need it from someone else. I am not included in this "society" as a "social" being, integrated in society. I am not included in anyone's life other than my parents. Thus what worth do I have?