Feeling that everyone secretly hates me

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When I'm in class, and put in a seminar group I don't ever make any meaningful contributions. I can't talk most of the time, I think most people would assume I'm mute. I feel like the people in my seminar groups loathe me because I don't do anything to help, and also I feel like they loathe being seen with me in public. I don't ever approach people for friendship because I assume they would hate to be seen with me. I don't think everyone hates me though, people in the street I think have a fleeting sense of disgust, but they don't hate me.

 

[Razzlecherry]

Yeah, I feel this way. It's the biggest thing preventing me from actually starting relationships with people. I feel as if everybody hates me, so I avoid them so as to not burden them. The terrible thing is, I actually make up excuses for them in my mind. I justify them hating me, making things so much worse.

But I deal.

 

[LoneW0lf]

yea thats me. struggling to break this vicious cycle and rewire these thought processes. its been feeling like ive been taking 1 step forward n 2 steps back lately. im really trying to improve..