feeling embarrassed all the time

[Etbow23]

I don't know if anyone else feels this way, but I feel embarrassed about how awkward i act sometimes. like today at work, in the morning when i'm tired i'm even more awkward. I was just being weird i felt. then later i stayed on the phone w my boyfriend in the breakroom just because i had anxiety about being there and not on the phone. And i was saying such stupid stuff on the phone to make conversation so i wouldn't look alone around so many people and i know this other girl heard me. i feel embarrassed. I wish i could just relax and stop thinking about it.

 

[DeadmanWalking]

I think I know how you feel. We're too conscious of our actions unfortunately. What usually helps me stop thinking about it is some music or a barrage of thoughts. Try thinking about multiple things, so your mind won't have time to think about how awkward you may or may not look.

 

[MikeyC]

Constant embarrassment doesn't sound pleasant, but know that there's no reason to feel that way. Most people act the same as you so nobody's going to chastise you for that.

At least talking to your boyfriend helped, which means there's at least one person you can talk to when you're feeling that way. Even though you supposedly talked nonsense to him, the fact that you got to talk and your embarrassment dissipated for a short time is a good sign.

Sorry if I made no sense.

 

[Aletheia]

I get embarrassed because I'm awkward and awkward because I'm embarrassed.

What usually helps me stop thinking about it is some music

Anything to take me out of my head and into the world around me. Anything to break the tight little loop of self-consciousness.

 

[Etbow23]

Well I'm glad to know I'm not the only one

I do think I'm more awkward than other people though. With shyness sometimes everything just comes out wrong, when it all comes out right for other people. If I weren't so insecure I guess I'd be able to let it go easier.