Feel like I don't fit in anywhere.

this is me exactly as well

growing up i was always part of the "cool" crowd.. had so many friends and went out everyday afterschool and to all the partys on the weekend... then i got into heavy drugs for 3 years with a few people and all my other friends moved on and disowned me now I have only had one friend for the past 3 years.

We dont really talk anymore and we certainly don't hang out. I fear shes drifted away from me because of my OCD and SA but who knows.

Life gets so lonley these days and I wonder if I will ever have a friend again. I can't imagine living my whole life ahead of me without any friends but the way its going thats how its gonna be.

i was taking some classes earlier this year, not really knowing what to expect. i assumed it would be different from high school and it was in some ways but it was no different in the sense that i felt completely alone.

my uncle was in some of my classes and the fact that he was a bit of an offbeat person himself seemed to keep people at a distance. in my english class the teacher assinghned group work ( which i despise ) and i just sat there. i looked around the room to see if there was anyone left but all i saw was this fat chick staring at me with this ****ing grin on her face as if she was laughing at the one kid without a partner. i went home that night and droped the class.

there were a few people that i spoke to but as soon as the conversations began i desperately wanted them to end. i never know what to say...in any situation...and its effecting my relationship with my family at this point. i get these looks some times, and i can only guess as to what their thinking. " weird mother f*****. " is probably the gist. im catching my family giving me these same looks. where DO i fit in if not with my family?