Rooftops
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I had a bad time at school right from the start (don't we all) but since college I've slowly but surely managed to overcome a lot of my anxiety. I am at my first year of uni now and am doing okay. I still agonise over embarrassing throw away comments I've made, have the occasional panic attack and find it difficult to talk in larger groups.
I like one guy in my class but haven't really spoken to him properly, as he is always with other people and that terrifies me. Also, I worry about getting something wrong if I speak to him because he knows so much. I worry he will judge me based on my knowledge of stuff he likes.
In the past I've told two guys that I like them and they both stopped speaking to me, along with two flings. I don't know if I can handle another rejection. Additionally, last night I had a nice dream about him and he said, "I like to be in control" to me. I'm not sure if that's relevant or means anything.
Do you also get paranoid about looking too clever/dumb in front of other people? I do find myself either dumbing down or clamming up based on how intelligent I believe the other person to be.
Thanks -x- (I've been lurking on these forums for a while. Slightly creepy but I'm more of a listener than a talker - is that a word?)
I like one guy in my class but haven't really spoken to him properly, as he is always with other people and that terrifies me. Also, I worry about getting something wrong if I speak to him because he knows so much. I worry he will judge me based on my knowledge of stuff he likes.
In the past I've told two guys that I like them and they both stopped speaking to me, along with two flings. I don't know if I can handle another rejection. Additionally, last night I had a nice dream about him and he said, "I like to be in control" to me. I'm not sure if that's relevant or means anything.
Do you also get paranoid about looking too clever/dumb in front of other people? I do find myself either dumbing down or clamming up based on how intelligent I believe the other person to be.
Thanks -x- (I've been lurking on these forums for a while. Slightly creepy but I'm more of a listener than a talker - is that a word?)