Falkor
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Hi there everyone,
thanks for reading, I just want to post a topic here since now I think it is neccesarly. I'm not here quite often anymore though right now I really think it's good to post on here, about this, since it makes a lot of sense.
Fear of talking, is the most common fear by people in the world, most people are terrified of speeching, phone calls not that much though, face to face a lot, like dates.. and such! Exams! Though every scenario is a date sweat for me, or an exam.. like a test.. though a date, isn't like that, cuz i feel great around my girlfriend, i trust her mostly of most people, sooo, yeah, a date is just an exam, or a simple day of school.. Or a phone call YIKES, even a friend, i'm terrified of it.. Thogh when i think of this, an interview is way more frightening.. Its gonna happen soooooon YIkee hellp
I know I have this to a very high range.
Today, I will be called in only 15 minutes.... I have an interview with a magazine.
I'm not famous, I just got contacted by mail by a woman whom is interested in my life, she works for a magazine, which yes, is in the local stores eveywhere in Holland here... So, everybody will read it, classmates of mine, family, friends, people who know me, strangers, everyone!
So, it is making me famous, yep.. Though right now, i'm not in the magazine yet, that's a fact. I'm just a singer, songwriter on youtube, whom rarely performs, I used to sing on stage three years ago, I gave up due to feeling too afraid of it, terrified of people looking at me..
Now, I have threwn myself in the deep. All though it's awesome, and I know when I did it, I will be so awesome happy that it's done. I always got t his feeling, when it's done, I'm proud. Before, I'm stuck with a nervous throat sweating to not fail.... Damn failure fear, what is this about? How can I shut you out?
They tel me - Just do it. Yup I do, I will not cancel the phone like I used to do, in the past... All time, even with people whom were just friends.. I lost them, because of my stupid Social Anxious behaviour! It's all a bad huge mistake failure.... So avoiding is no option.
I have practiced, my family even told me it's pretty nice i write things down like reminders and such before I get called, or that I think aobut a various of subjects...
Though, I'm sooo terrified.. I know when the phone will ring, My heart will be stuck in my neck... like a huge pain, (LOL)...
Hmm, so yeah. Also about presentations, speeches! I want to do that so bad, though I always said when I was a little girl, teacher can I just deliver you a presentation map with a lot of bookwork? Yup I could... They understood my shyness and huuuge fear... Cuz once i tried it, and I was sweating and had to cry because I was shaking too much, and those guys they were laughing hard and were humilitating me and were imitating my feared face, for two years...
God damn bullies..
So yeah, It's still on my mind, that people could laugh...
It still happens quite a lot.
Hmm, I don't think where this subject is going now, does it even make sense?
Am I weird? Will people laugh about my stupid context? I think this is a huge fear..
I do call my girlfriend every week and coach... Though I should get rid of this big disease... Those people have caused my social phobia, I think...
I still see those guys monsters at school, I feel terrified and run away when their in the same space.. Hmm, I feel alienated by them.
I had a great day today though, I was walking with two classmates outside and we had to laugh a lot about silly jokes that we made, so that's good.
Ok.... calm down now.... in 7 minutes YIKESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS::
thanks for reading, I just want to post a topic here since now I think it is neccesarly. I'm not here quite often anymore though right now I really think it's good to post on here, about this, since it makes a lot of sense.
Fear of talking, is the most common fear by people in the world, most people are terrified of speeching, phone calls not that much though, face to face a lot, like dates.. and such! Exams! Though every scenario is a date sweat for me, or an exam.. like a test.. though a date, isn't like that, cuz i feel great around my girlfriend, i trust her mostly of most people, sooo, yeah, a date is just an exam, or a simple day of school.. Or a phone call YIKES, even a friend, i'm terrified of it.. Thogh when i think of this, an interview is way more frightening.. Its gonna happen soooooon YIkee hellp
I know I have this to a very high range.
Today, I will be called in only 15 minutes.... I have an interview with a magazine.
I'm not famous, I just got contacted by mail by a woman whom is interested in my life, she works for a magazine, which yes, is in the local stores eveywhere in Holland here... So, everybody will read it, classmates of mine, family, friends, people who know me, strangers, everyone!
So, it is making me famous, yep.. Though right now, i'm not in the magazine yet, that's a fact. I'm just a singer, songwriter on youtube, whom rarely performs, I used to sing on stage three years ago, I gave up due to feeling too afraid of it, terrified of people looking at me..
Now, I have threwn myself in the deep. All though it's awesome, and I know when I did it, I will be so awesome happy that it's done. I always got t his feeling, when it's done, I'm proud. Before, I'm stuck with a nervous throat sweating to not fail.... Damn failure fear, what is this about? How can I shut you out?
They tel me - Just do it. Yup I do, I will not cancel the phone like I used to do, in the past... All time, even with people whom were just friends.. I lost them, because of my stupid Social Anxious behaviour! It's all a bad huge mistake failure.... So avoiding is no option.
I have practiced, my family even told me it's pretty nice i write things down like reminders and such before I get called, or that I think aobut a various of subjects...
Though, I'm sooo terrified.. I know when the phone will ring, My heart will be stuck in my neck... like a huge pain, (LOL)...
Hmm, so yeah. Also about presentations, speeches! I want to do that so bad, though I always said when I was a little girl, teacher can I just deliver you a presentation map with a lot of bookwork? Yup I could... They understood my shyness and huuuge fear... Cuz once i tried it, and I was sweating and had to cry because I was shaking too much, and those guys they were laughing hard and were humilitating me and were imitating my feared face, for two years...
God damn bullies..
So yeah, It's still on my mind, that people could laugh...
It still happens quite a lot.
Hmm, I don't think where this subject is going now, does it even make sense?
Am I weird? Will people laugh about my stupid context? I think this is a huge fear..
I do call my girlfriend every week and coach... Though I should get rid of this big disease... Those people have caused my social phobia, I think...
I still see those guys monsters at school, I feel terrified and run away when their in the same space.. Hmm, I feel alienated by them.
I had a great day today though, I was walking with two classmates outside and we had to laugh a lot about silly jokes that we made, so that's good.
Ok.... calm down now.... in 7 minutes YIKESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
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