SocialRetahd
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Today was the hardest.
I'm in the waiting room of my doctors, and I go to look out the window and see the kid who has made my life hell. He walking into the building and I am contemplating doing something, but i dont cause i know I wouldn't be able to follow through with the suicide.
But look at me.
This kid beat my head in when i was 16 and theres nothing I can do about it. That is the same age where my growth stopped, when the doctor told me I would be 6'2. It's the same age I developed hypogonadism and never finished puberty (how embarrassing). It's the same age I lost whatever friends I had. It's the same age I became suicidial.
So much stress was caused, that had a great impact on me. Theres nothing i can do, but be mocked by god with his threat of eternal damnation if I was to.
This is fucking hell.
I'm in the waiting room of my doctors, and I go to look out the window and see the kid who has made my life hell. He walking into the building and I am contemplating doing something, but i dont cause i know I wouldn't be able to follow through with the suicide.
But look at me.
This kid beat my head in when i was 16 and theres nothing I can do about it. That is the same age where my growth stopped, when the doctor told me I would be 6'2. It's the same age I developed hypogonadism and never finished puberty (how embarrassing). It's the same age I lost whatever friends I had. It's the same age I became suicidial.
So much stress was caused, that had a great impact on me. Theres nothing i can do, but be mocked by god with his threat of eternal damnation if I was to.
This is fucking hell.