LeapFrog
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Sorry, this is more of a blog than anything else, but here goes...
The only people that I actually like in my family are my mom and dad and brother. My sister, aunt, uncle, cousins, etc. I am not so fond of. Its because they generally ignore me at family gatherings. And I'm usually made the butt of jokes -- In an innocent way, but still. So I don't want to be myself around them, and so I inevitably become the 'quiet one'. And I don't really enjoy talking to them either, as snobby as that sounds -- But I can't help it; it's true.
And my sister is no help, either. She always makes these stupid comments to make me feel worthless. Like tonight, we were at my Aunt and Uncle's house because it's Christmas Eve, and we usually go over there every year (it's tradition, I suppose). I forget what we were talking about, but I said something to my cousin, and my sister blurts out, "Oh look! He finally said something!". No one really paid attention to when she said that, but that really pissed me off. It's like, who cares? Aren't I allowed to talk? And she always says stuff like that.
Does anyone else ever feel 'bogged-down' by their family? Sometimes I feel as if they're suffocating me, and in order to be able to be myself and overcome my SA, I have to get away from them and everything to do with them.
So I basically don't like being my true-self around most of my family. Which is why I came to the solution that I am going to go to England to travel when I'm done college in 2007. It will make me more independent because I won't be bogged down by my family, and will help me overcome my SA, and I will be able to be myself.
Thoughts? Opinions? I want to know what you think, and if you've had any similar experiences.
The only people that I actually like in my family are my mom and dad and brother. My sister, aunt, uncle, cousins, etc. I am not so fond of. Its because they generally ignore me at family gatherings. And I'm usually made the butt of jokes -- In an innocent way, but still. So I don't want to be myself around them, and so I inevitably become the 'quiet one'. And I don't really enjoy talking to them either, as snobby as that sounds -- But I can't help it; it's true.
And my sister is no help, either. She always makes these stupid comments to make me feel worthless. Like tonight, we were at my Aunt and Uncle's house because it's Christmas Eve, and we usually go over there every year (it's tradition, I suppose). I forget what we were talking about, but I said something to my cousin, and my sister blurts out, "Oh look! He finally said something!". No one really paid attention to when she said that, but that really pissed me off. It's like, who cares? Aren't I allowed to talk? And she always says stuff like that.
Does anyone else ever feel 'bogged-down' by their family? Sometimes I feel as if they're suffocating me, and in order to be able to be myself and overcome my SA, I have to get away from them and everything to do with them.
So I basically don't like being my true-self around most of my family. Which is why I came to the solution that I am going to go to England to travel when I'm done college in 2007. It will make me more independent because I won't be bogged down by my family, and will help me overcome my SA, and I will be able to be myself.
Thoughts? Opinions? I want to know what you think, and if you've had any similar experiences.