hello everyone ,i am new here and i will like to share my story .
since childhood i was the shy , quite guy but mostly happy in my own world view.unfortunately i faced a lot of taunting in school till my 10 th grade which made me more edgy and responsive.everyday i hoped for a bit of respect and acceptance but those days were very few.
my parents underestimated the problem and since i am from india a third world country there was too much competition all around and the basic things of a healthy social life was grossly ignored.
school was all about giving exams and competing with the rest rather than a place for learning and friendship.
i also got into that frenzy of competition/comparison and worked very hard to get into a college which i did not thought very good off in my mind.
then slowly depression started to creep in and i totally neglected my studies.
from the second semester i started drinking,smoking regularly.i must confess at that point i was enjoying myself heavily spending my parents hard earned money in state akin to rebellion .
a year later i flunked for the first time in my second year of engineering but i did not told my parents about that and thought i will somehow manage it on my own
then slowly drinking was too boring and i started smoking pot ,initially on weekends and then in no time i became a full time addict.
the next whole year went like some trip.
since my story is too long please bear with me and i must tell writing this thing for the first time is helping me to get through many buried emotions.
to be continued.........
since childhood i was the shy , quite guy but mostly happy in my own world view.unfortunately i faced a lot of taunting in school till my 10 th grade which made me more edgy and responsive.everyday i hoped for a bit of respect and acceptance but those days were very few.
my parents underestimated the problem and since i am from india a third world country there was too much competition all around and the basic things of a healthy social life was grossly ignored.
school was all about giving exams and competing with the rest rather than a place for learning and friendship.
i also got into that frenzy of competition/comparison and worked very hard to get into a college which i did not thought very good off in my mind.
then slowly depression started to creep in and i totally neglected my studies.
from the second semester i started drinking,smoking regularly.i must confess at that point i was enjoying myself heavily spending my parents hard earned money in state akin to rebellion .
a year later i flunked for the first time in my second year of engineering but i did not told my parents about that and thought i will somehow manage it on my own
then slowly drinking was too boring and i started smoking pot ,initially on weekends and then in no time i became a full time addict.
the next whole year went like some trip.
since my story is too long please bear with me and i must tell writing this thing for the first time is helping me to get through many buried emotions.
to be continued.........
