I totally get it falkor !!!
I would blush ( feel heat on my face) when I walked down hallways.
Was there something that has ever affect your self confidence in the past?
I know many bullies made me feel that way.
Or I felt that way because I didn't feel attractive to anyone.
It is a false perception. There is nothing wrong with taking care of your skin,
but 10 times a day is too much :
: Just do it 2-3 times a day
I'm so sorry that you feel un-pretty!!!
Those things don't make you any less beautiful.
Yeah it is hard trying to feel attractive with acne.
I get how things can affect you, but there are so many false perceptions because one may have low confidence.
I don't know much about BDD, but I know many women and girls feel the same way that you do. I hope one day you can look in the mirror and actually see how lovely you truly are!!!!
I wish I could help you, with your self esteem.