Posted here because it's not SA any more.
What's going on? This is getting stupid now. This is what everything's come to.
There are two girls, and I've talked about both on this forum. The first is the person who I can talk to the most and that's because she's been so nice to me. She appears to kind of understand the difficulty I have with people. She's single, she wants somebody and this weekend (if it ever happens, it's been going on for weeks) we might be doing something together, looking at something more, possibly, slowly. But we're opposites and she's very full on. She likes (slightly) older men, yet for some reason she says that she might me interested in me if we get to know each other.
In the nicest possible way though I don't feel like 'that' about her... mainly because I don't know how we'd get on (ie. generally what we like), also because she's now the only sort-of friend that I've got and I don't want to mess that up. But, if we did go out this weekend and actually get to talk to each other, who knows what I'll start to feel.
Then there's the second, who I've been talking about recently. She's sweet, she has buckets of confidence like most people do but she can also be really quite quiet. She's not been having a great time recently with feeling crap and an idiot sort-of-ex-boyfriend - who I didn't know about, but she has now got completely rid of, to her delight... because she's just posted it on Facebook, minutes ago. I feel for her about that and I'm glad she's shot of him.
I have not told her about how I feel and I have not asked her out in any serious way. I have only asked her in a pathetic, half-arsed way over the internet. If I did those things (face to face, but I don't know how with SA), and she said no, I would not pester her. And she probably isn't even looking for anyone after what's happened. I don't know where I am with her and she's leaving where we work for good in about two weeks time. Although I feel like I'd almost die, I'd take her out for dinner if she wanted. I have felt like this about someone before, and I never took a chance.
All this is with SA and no idea how I could have a relationship with anyone. Or if I'm even ready for it. But the last year was a fluke, I've been incredibly lucky getting to know these people, I have the chance in front of me, and I may never get another one.
The 'love shyness' book shack posted makes me wonder if any of my feelings are real. Maybe this is all just nothing.
I don't want to hurt the first, and she is starting to think that I fancy her. And I don't know if I do. It'll be fine if I don't take it any further and make it clear that I just want to be friends, because nothing's happened yet. I'm not going to be anything but honest with her, I just don't know what I want to do.
Help.
What's going on? This is getting stupid now. This is what everything's come to.
There are two girls, and I've talked about both on this forum. The first is the person who I can talk to the most and that's because she's been so nice to me. She appears to kind of understand the difficulty I have with people. She's single, she wants somebody and this weekend (if it ever happens, it's been going on for weeks) we might be doing something together, looking at something more, possibly, slowly. But we're opposites and she's very full on. She likes (slightly) older men, yet for some reason she says that she might me interested in me if we get to know each other.
In the nicest possible way though I don't feel like 'that' about her... mainly because I don't know how we'd get on (ie. generally what we like), also because she's now the only sort-of friend that I've got and I don't want to mess that up. But, if we did go out this weekend and actually get to talk to each other, who knows what I'll start to feel.
Then there's the second, who I've been talking about recently. She's sweet, she has buckets of confidence like most people do but she can also be really quite quiet. She's not been having a great time recently with feeling crap and an idiot sort-of-ex-boyfriend - who I didn't know about, but she has now got completely rid of, to her delight... because she's just posted it on Facebook, minutes ago. I feel for her about that and I'm glad she's shot of him.
I have not told her about how I feel and I have not asked her out in any serious way. I have only asked her in a pathetic, half-arsed way over the internet. If I did those things (face to face, but I don't know how with SA), and she said no, I would not pester her. And she probably isn't even looking for anyone after what's happened. I don't know where I am with her and she's leaving where we work for good in about two weeks time. Although I feel like I'd almost die, I'd take her out for dinner if she wanted. I have felt like this about someone before, and I never took a chance.
All this is with SA and no idea how I could have a relationship with anyone. Or if I'm even ready for it. But the last year was a fluke, I've been incredibly lucky getting to know these people, I have the chance in front of me, and I may never get another one.
The 'love shyness' book shack posted makes me wonder if any of my feelings are real. Maybe this is all just nothing.
I don't want to hurt the first, and she is starting to think that I fancy her. And I don't know if I do. It'll be fine if I don't take it any further and make it clear that I just want to be friends, because nothing's happened yet. I'm not going to be anything but honest with her, I just don't know what I want to do.
Help.