LightChaser
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Hi, I am new here ... thought if I vent it would help me a bit. I've been diagnosed with SA and depression about 10 years back. I feel like I just lost my one and only friend due to my (maybe) childish behaviour but I'd like a different perspective on the situation. Thanks!
Though this isn't a major issue, it is cause for my anxiety and panic attacks to flare up, so here it is:
I have known this guy, a friend of mine, for quite some time. After he moved to another state, he became very narcissistic and bragged a lot to me about what he did over the weekends or whatever...
Like he was just saying anything he could to irritate me because he knows my situation in that I don't have the money to do a lot of the stuff he does, I just have an average job, average life.
Well on my birthday, he didn't text me with 'happy birthday' (I didn't expect him to) but instead he said he was very busy over the weekend (so what's new, I thought...so was I with the kids) and I didn't respond. He quickly sent another text with this:
"I Ran in a 5K race, bent rebar with my neck, went house hunting, did some archery, etc"
I just replied with a smiley face.
Normally my answer, if it were anyone else would be, "good for you" or "sounds like you had fun" but with him, each weekend it's either he tells me he went skydiving, spelunking, mountain biking 25 miles and he's seriously told me these things. (the list is endless, seriously).
I don't lead a boring life, just 'average' and mainly due to my financial situation and of course SA and my depression is a real thorn in my side, but I grew increasingly irritated with him because he knows my situation but he continues to brag or whatever, I get infuriated because at times he sounds condescending, etc., so I blocked him from future texts, etc.
Was this mean & childish of me?
I should add that he's in a serious relationship but while visiting home, he didn't hesitate to call me to tell me where he's staying 'for a hookup, I DID NOT oblige. When he moved he was depressed and I was there for him for a shoulder to cry on, then when he joined about 5 or 6 meetup groups and started doing stuff, he didn't hesitate to tell me all about HIS weekend, or I did this or I did that...all the meanwhile never even asking a simple, "how are you" to me. I admit I peered at his FB page and he has a pretty girlfriend now, their going to move in together, etc. I also learned about some lies he told me when in the past and I learned that he had a girlfriend when he wanted us to hook up and I said no.
I don't know why I had let him get to me like that, my panic attacks and depression would flare up, my self esteem is low as it is, but it's hard to describe, I just get so mad with him.
Though this isn't a major issue, it is cause for my anxiety and panic attacks to flare up, so here it is:
I have known this guy, a friend of mine, for quite some time. After he moved to another state, he became very narcissistic and bragged a lot to me about what he did over the weekends or whatever...
Like he was just saying anything he could to irritate me because he knows my situation in that I don't have the money to do a lot of the stuff he does, I just have an average job, average life.
Well on my birthday, he didn't text me with 'happy birthday' (I didn't expect him to) but instead he said he was very busy over the weekend (so what's new, I thought...so was I with the kids) and I didn't respond. He quickly sent another text with this:
"I Ran in a 5K race, bent rebar with my neck, went house hunting, did some archery, etc"
I just replied with a smiley face.
Normally my answer, if it were anyone else would be, "good for you" or "sounds like you had fun" but with him, each weekend it's either he tells me he went skydiving, spelunking, mountain biking 25 miles and he's seriously told me these things. (the list is endless, seriously).
I don't lead a boring life, just 'average' and mainly due to my financial situation and of course SA and my depression is a real thorn in my side, but I grew increasingly irritated with him because he knows my situation but he continues to brag or whatever, I get infuriated because at times he sounds condescending, etc., so I blocked him from future texts, etc.
Was this mean & childish of me?
I should add that he's in a serious relationship but while visiting home, he didn't hesitate to call me to tell me where he's staying 'for a hookup, I DID NOT oblige. When he moved he was depressed and I was there for him for a shoulder to cry on, then when he joined about 5 or 6 meetup groups and started doing stuff, he didn't hesitate to tell me all about HIS weekend, or I did this or I did that...all the meanwhile never even asking a simple, "how are you" to me. I admit I peered at his FB page and he has a pretty girlfriend now, their going to move in together, etc. I also learned about some lies he told me when in the past and I learned that he had a girlfriend when he wanted us to hook up and I said no.
I don't know why I had let him get to me like that, my panic attacks and depression would flare up, my self esteem is low as it is, but it's hard to describe, I just get so mad with him.