Depression: The Darkness is slowly Returning

[ImNotMyIllness]

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[ImNotMyIllness]

I'm now aggressively looking for a job in my industry and have dipped my toe in the dating world-I don't seem to be off to a good start in either. :sad:

 

[Quietguy11]

Medication has worked for me. I use to go into these silent modes where I would just stop talking to people, and nothing could break me out of them. It was serious depression. It's easy to become unmotivated with life, especially if negativity outweighs positivity in your life. Medication can't hurt, it may make you feel extremely tired all the time, but feeling tired is a lot better than feeling heavy with depression.

 

[skins]

I was just wondering the other day where you had gotten to... I was hoping that the all natural diet was working wonders with your depression and life situation. I'm sure diet does help but sadly i've come to the realisation that depression will be a big part of my life for ever, coming and going in waves of its severities....ive slowly accecpted ive just got to enjoy the not so depressed times and ride out the severely depressed times as it will be with me forever ...(unless I have some form of mind altering surgery or electro shock therapy, whch probably aint going to happen). If I remember back to my child hood, that's what it was like to live completely depression free, but it seems my brain chemistry is now far too altered to ever enjoy that state of mind again..i accept it as a certain stage of the whole life experience thing, like an insect goes through different stages of its life cycle....just the same I will never get to be the free spirited larval form again. Im sure in the future it will be a quick half hour brain operation to alter the chemistry of the brain back to a more favourable state, but sadly im not living in those times...just like those in past eras had to suffer medical problems which of todays standards are considered a minor fix. sure I take medication for it but it only ever makes it slightly easier to live with and only ever will.

 

[R3K]

ur in LA? I live there. about a year ago someone did a meet-up in santa monica that I missed out on unfortunately. I think someone should start a new one in LA area so everyone can bask in each others' depression. misery loves company haha

 

[Rogue]

try not to be too critical on your attempts. i think you're off to a good start already. oftentimes its hard to even make attempts to change when you're depressed.

 

[Diend]

It's a stab in the dark but how about not pushing yourself and just being content. I've only been depressed once and it was mainly about not having any close friends so, maybe you have a biological need you need to meet.

 

[ImNotMyIllness]

Thanks everyone for responding. You all have good input....This state of mind is making me very suicidal. I've had many depressive episodes but I think this will be the one to do me in......if, I don't change things quickly.

Medication has worked for me. I use to go into these silent modes where I would just stop talking to people, and nothing could break me out of them. It was serious depression. It's easy to become unmotivated with life, especially if negativity outweighs positivity in your life. Medication can't hurt, it may make you feel extremely tired all the time, but feeling tired is a lot better than feeling heavy with depression.

I've tried Fluoxetine and Anafranil but neither helped. I don't want to try anymore. But, thanks for the advice.

I was just wondering the other day where you had gotten to... I was hoping that the all natural diet was working wonders with your depression and life situation. I'm sure diet does help but sadly i've come to the realisation that depression will be a big part of my life for ever, coming and going in waves of its severities....ive slowly accecpted ive just got to enjoy the not so depressed times and ride out the severely depressed times as it will be with me forever ...(unless I have some form of mind altering surgery or electro shock therapy, whch probably aint going to happen). If I remember back to my child hood, that's what it was like to live completely depression free, but it seems my brain chemistry is now far too altered to ever enjoy that state of mind again..i accept it as a certain stage of the whole life experience thing, like an insect goes through different stages of its life cycle....just the same I will never get to be the free spirited larval form again. Im sure in the future it will be a quick half hour brain operation to alter the chemistry of the brain back to a more favourable state, but sadly im not living in those times...just like those in past eras had to suffer medical problems which of todays standards are considered a minor fix. sure I take medication for it but it only ever makes it slightly easier to live with and only ever will.

Hey Skins! Long time no see. Nutrition and a positive perspective gave me a new life for a few months. But, now another wave is coming and this one seems severe. I think having a job and a girlfriend would help turn things around. It's hard to be content in poverty and loneliness.

ur in LA? I live there. about a year ago someone did a meet-up in santa monica that I missed out on unfortunately. I think someone should start a new one in LA area so everyone can bask in each others' depression. misery loves company haha

Hey! I am near LA. A group meeting could help or make things worse........I fear it will probably make it worse.