Similar to another thread subject, but this is my case.
Anyone find it extra hard to decide some things?
Anyway, By about now I need to decide if i'm going to try starting a uni course (would b going from home, not living there), or to defer it for a year and then see.
For the past 3 years Ive gone to just college. A muisc one. Although I didnt like alot of it, and didn't really have propper friends for most of of it, I liked having something like that in the background, well especially now looking back.
This would be my only reason for trying uni. I DON'T desire a degree, or a well paid job hah. And I mean that. Its doing music for fun hats important to me, everything else is just work to me so I would settle for a small that doesn't require loads of skills job. However I wonder if with uni being a higher level, this would be a wrong reason to go, and if I should defer it and then see in a year. I find it hard to see myself finishing it if I did go. I found the last thing I did difficult to keep up with in terms of work, and that wasn't a degree. But I like the exuse of being in education. Its just I wonder if I have the wrong idea with this and that it is more than that, at uni level.
Before, I have said to myself I would not do uni, and would just focus on my own music. I am tempted to stick with this, and work on my music for a year and then see. But then its like I realise I wont really have much human contct. Or atleast very limited. This is OK with me in one way, but not so much in another. But again, I dont know if that alone would be a good enough reason to do it either. However, my reasons for human contact are abit phony too. Because I only want that part in the hope that I'd find people I like to play music with, or have interest from girls, which I didnt get the past 3 years. But this could be just the same anyway, since I am still me, and don't want to change anyway. I am fine with being shy, even if that means no girls hah. I wish I could redo college again at the level I did before, but with different people, and just have it in the background, you know hah. But I wonder if uni would be too hard and involved to have as a background thing. It would be a music course BTW.
But its as if the idea of uni, go against me as a person in some way, and what I set out to do. But then sometimes I dont like the idea of wishing I was doing it, after 2 weeks in hah. I know if defered it though, I could know that if that happened, that I will still be able to go if I want, just have to wait.
Anyone find it extra hard to decide some things?
Anyway, By about now I need to decide if i'm going to try starting a uni course (would b going from home, not living there), or to defer it for a year and then see.
For the past 3 years Ive gone to just college. A muisc one. Although I didnt like alot of it, and didn't really have propper friends for most of of it, I liked having something like that in the background, well especially now looking back.
This would be my only reason for trying uni. I DON'T desire a degree, or a well paid job hah. And I mean that. Its doing music for fun hats important to me, everything else is just work to me so I would settle for a small that doesn't require loads of skills job. However I wonder if with uni being a higher level, this would be a wrong reason to go, and if I should defer it and then see in a year. I find it hard to see myself finishing it if I did go. I found the last thing I did difficult to keep up with in terms of work, and that wasn't a degree. But I like the exuse of being in education. Its just I wonder if I have the wrong idea with this and that it is more than that, at uni level.
Before, I have said to myself I would not do uni, and would just focus on my own music. I am tempted to stick with this, and work on my music for a year and then see. But then its like I realise I wont really have much human contct. Or atleast very limited. This is OK with me in one way, but not so much in another. But again, I dont know if that alone would be a good enough reason to do it either. However, my reasons for human contact are abit phony too. Because I only want that part in the hope that I'd find people I like to play music with, or have interest from girls, which I didnt get the past 3 years. But this could be just the same anyway, since I am still me, and don't want to change anyway. I am fine with being shy, even if that means no girls hah. I wish I could redo college again at the level I did before, but with different people, and just have it in the background, you know hah. But I wonder if uni would be too hard and involved to have as a background thing. It would be a music course BTW.
But its as if the idea of uni, go against me as a person in some way, and what I set out to do. But then sometimes I dont like the idea of wishing I was doing it, after 2 weeks in hah. I know if defered it though, I could know that if that happened, that I will still be able to go if I want, just have to wait.
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