angryguy
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can i build self confidence buy learning to fight - lyfe story
could it?
when i was a kid i was always afraid of embarrassing myself by losing a fight. i think my biggest regret ever was not standing up for myself against a bully and keeping my dignity i didnt realise myself being bullied until my long term PTSD from it became obvious. i was miserable felt like a 40 yr old with extreme anxiety at the time
the guy who always harassed and put me down for for 5 years age 13-17 caused it he just a plain ***** douoche, most other ppl made fun of me specially bcus i was abnormally strong very skinny and short and didnt talk but the jokes were just for fun, compared to that one guy who made sure every moment in high school was misery.
not that i feel anything from it now the long term harrasment degrading has left me with chronic depression and chronic low self esteem to this day
even now (4yrs later) i started lifting and im huge now anxiety and stress has gone down a lot but still quite a lot but i feel like 20 yrs now. i can talk **** all i want on internet. but i still dont think i would stand up for my self if someone was harassing me in real life or attacked me in public crowd i would be doubtful embarassed of fighting back. eventhough im strong as fk now I can bench 300 lbs dead lift 440lbs
and i think this could possibly be a reason why i still lack confidence because i possibly need to be confident i can fight for myself if someone attacked me verbally or physically infront of a crowd
So the question is would gaining fighting knowledge and being confident in my self defence possibly help me build overall self confidence? like being sociable enough to make friends and if i get confidence im sociable enuf, maybe try for a gf too?
its impossible to change when the brain is messed up at such an early age, u can never change inside what u really were as a kid
could it?
when i was a kid i was always afraid of embarrassing myself by losing a fight. i think my biggest regret ever was not standing up for myself against a bully and keeping my dignity i didnt realise myself being bullied until my long term PTSD from it became obvious. i was miserable felt like a 40 yr old with extreme anxiety at the time
the guy who always harassed and put me down for for 5 years age 13-17 caused it he just a plain ***** douoche, most other ppl made fun of me specially bcus i was abnormally strong very skinny and short and didnt talk but the jokes were just for fun, compared to that one guy who made sure every moment in high school was misery.
not that i feel anything from it now the long term harrasment degrading has left me with chronic depression and chronic low self esteem to this day
even now (4yrs later) i started lifting and im huge now anxiety and stress has gone down a lot but still quite a lot but i feel like 20 yrs now. i can talk **** all i want on internet. but i still dont think i would stand up for my self if someone was harassing me in real life or attacked me in public crowd i would be doubtful embarassed of fighting back. eventhough im strong as fk now I can bench 300 lbs dead lift 440lbs
and i think this could possibly be a reason why i still lack confidence because i possibly need to be confident i can fight for myself if someone attacked me verbally or physically infront of a crowd
So the question is would gaining fighting knowledge and being confident in my self defence possibly help me build overall self confidence? like being sociable enough to make friends and if i get confidence im sociable enuf, maybe try for a gf too?
its impossible to change when the brain is messed up at such an early age, u can never change inside what u really were as a kid
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Good luck!