So I have this friend, have known her about 5 years or so, more of an aquaintance through work really, only see her at work. She is getting married this year, probably before Christmas, and wants me to be in her wedding. She was so excited to ask me, and I am really stressing about it. I am sure she knows there is something different about me, but we have never discussed my anxiety issues. 8O Although I feel honoured she asked me to be in wedding, can't see myself going through with it, the walking up the aisle with some dude I don't know 8O, sitting at head table with people I don't know (don't even know her very well, much less anyone elso gonna be there), and all the fancy parties leading up to wedding and beyond. Know what I mean? She will be hurt and disappointed if I decline. And in a horrible selfish way on my part, I hope they delay wedding or cancel, so I don't have to do it. Cowardly, I know