Neebo
Well-known member
Hi everyone! I haven't posted on here in about three years,so it feels kind of weird to be wrtiting this post. By the way I'd like to say a huge welcome to any new members or visitors to the site
My life over the past three years has improved. A few years ago I was a virtual recluse who couldn't even leave the house Now these day's I am back in college studying and also working part time as a food handler. My confidence has increased since three years ago. However there is something that has always bothered me :x
It was about six years ago when I was going to see a clinical psychologist,that I was diagnosed as having social anxiety disorder. The thing is though, they also tested by mental abilities ,ie intelligence and common sense. After they had done the test the results werent so good. According to them I was ''slow'' I had poor co ordination and motor skills and I also had memory lapses as well, not to mention the fact that I am crap at socializing :x Apparently I was also told that I couldn't do the simplest of tasks ,ie such as making a cup of tea or even getting my self dressed 8O To make even more worried they recommended I go for a brain scan to see what was wrong.
A few weeks later I did go the hospital, but they just took my blood pressure and gave me a physical examination. But they neglected to give me a brain scan like they were requested to. This was about seven years ago now and ever since then I have always wondered if I am actually brain damaged and that is why I am like the way I am Things have got worse of late. I am starting to become more and more convinced that I am brain damaged but just very mildly.
I look odd. In the past someone said I looked like I was in a world of my own and I didn't know what day it was. This comment came from one of my mums so called former best friends I've also had next door neighbours ask my parents if I was mentally retarded 8O And also comments such as ''Whats wrong with that boy or ''He looks weird,gormless and half asleep'' :evil: Its so frustrating because thats just how I look. I can't help it. Even though my confidence has improved and I am socializing more, I still think I am Brain damaged and would like a scan. I am sure that if I have the scan, the damage will show and then they can fix it and I will be cured
I have asked my parents over and over again If I had any serious accidents that caused me to severely injure my brain. they have told me no over and over. I just don't believe them. In fact in the past I even accused them of covering it up. I told that I thought that they knew very well that there was something wrong with my brain and that they were both keeping it a secret from me. Understandably they were both upset and hurt that I could think such a thing but I just can't help it.
Sometimes it just eats away at me :x I wonder why they didn't give me the brain scan so they could cure me I have tried to order one again, but no one believes me :x My doctor, psychiatrist and parents think its all in my head. I just can't get it out of my head. Some nights I can't sleep at night :evil: I have even contemplated deliberately knocking myself out or causing myself a head injury, just so I will be admitted to hospital and then they would have to give me a brain scan then.
Sorry the post was so long, I just had to get this off my chest.
My life over the past three years has improved. A few years ago I was a virtual recluse who couldn't even leave the house Now these day's I am back in college studying and also working part time as a food handler. My confidence has increased since three years ago. However there is something that has always bothered me :x
It was about six years ago when I was going to see a clinical psychologist,that I was diagnosed as having social anxiety disorder. The thing is though, they also tested by mental abilities ,ie intelligence and common sense. After they had done the test the results werent so good. According to them I was ''slow'' I had poor co ordination and motor skills and I also had memory lapses as well, not to mention the fact that I am crap at socializing :x Apparently I was also told that I couldn't do the simplest of tasks ,ie such as making a cup of tea or even getting my self dressed 8O To make even more worried they recommended I go for a brain scan to see what was wrong.
A few weeks later I did go the hospital, but they just took my blood pressure and gave me a physical examination. But they neglected to give me a brain scan like they were requested to. This was about seven years ago now and ever since then I have always wondered if I am actually brain damaged and that is why I am like the way I am Things have got worse of late. I am starting to become more and more convinced that I am brain damaged but just very mildly.
I look odd. In the past someone said I looked like I was in a world of my own and I didn't know what day it was. This comment came from one of my mums so called former best friends I've also had next door neighbours ask my parents if I was mentally retarded 8O And also comments such as ''Whats wrong with that boy or ''He looks weird,gormless and half asleep'' :evil: Its so frustrating because thats just how I look. I can't help it. Even though my confidence has improved and I am socializing more, I still think I am Brain damaged and would like a scan. I am sure that if I have the scan, the damage will show and then they can fix it and I will be cured
I have asked my parents over and over again If I had any serious accidents that caused me to severely injure my brain. they have told me no over and over. I just don't believe them. In fact in the past I even accused them of covering it up. I told that I thought that they knew very well that there was something wrong with my brain and that they were both keeping it a secret from me. Understandably they were both upset and hurt that I could think such a thing but I just can't help it.
Sometimes it just eats away at me :x I wonder why they didn't give me the brain scan so they could cure me I have tried to order one again, but no one believes me :x My doctor, psychiatrist and parents think its all in my head. I just can't get it out of my head. Some nights I can't sleep at night :evil: I have even contemplated deliberately knocking myself out or causing myself a head injury, just so I will be admitted to hospital and then they would have to give me a brain scan then.
Sorry the post was so long, I just had to get this off my chest.