Lonestar473
Active member
Edit: Sorry! Wish the 'have trouble eating infront
of others' thread that I just saw was at the top before I
started typing this thread! I didn't see it..
(Since this kind of covers there very same thing!) *Doh!*
Edit2: (Although on second thought for me its more the lack
of buffer space between me and strangers than eating
in front of strangers.)
(Its long, I know, sorry- I'm not good at simplifying)
Okay so maybe not the best title *EVAR* but after
10 minutes I gave up!
So I had an awkward experience this morning. And I don't
really know if its just me, or if it would have been any different
for some of you, or if you have a clue as to what might have
been going on what.
I have Asperger's if you don't know what that means,
search Google, and maybe rent a recent movie called Adam.
I also, because of the whole social skills issue, exhibit some SA
tendencies and feelings about some social situations in many
contexts.
So I went this morning to meet with my previous college professor
so he could be my 'Adviser' for registering for classes this fall.
That went fine, afterwords, I realized, hey.. I'm hungry!
It was just about the end of breakfast time, which was fine
because I didn't feel too much like breakfast food.
So I get my food, which was a little meh, but not the bad part.
I pick a seat on a little small table with two chairs, that's against
a wall that goes up to about shoulder height when your sitting down.
On the other side of the wall is a booth for 4 people. The table was a
bit dirty, and there were lots of empty seats all over. I kind of picked
one that was in the middle, but out of the way, except for this booth
on the other side of that wall.
So I don't really understand if its and NT thing or what, maybe you
guys could enlighten me since even if you have SA, you understand
the signals mostly even if you don't act on it/them/whatever. Ok, or
you would at least see them better than me.
An older guy, and a younger girl, he was maybe 50ish? and she
was like my age.. 25ish? Get their drinks and then walk around a
moment, look at me or my general area at least twice for a brief
moment, walk to the booth, see its dirty - and then sit down
there anyway!
So its basically like this:
So I have only eaten like 2 bites, which means that there is no hope
of being able to finish quickly and go. Thus I spent my entire time
eating being nervous, thinking about whether I could move or if that
would be taken offensively. Trying not to act conspicuous, ie - normal.
I think I failed. I was constantly staring off to the right, away from them.
Anymore and my neck might have got stuck
Or if not I was staring down at my food. I only glanced their way one time
and wouldn't it be my luck.. that would be when the girl looked my way,
and our eyes met for a brief instant and I jerked my head back away..
I hate it when I am just looking around, trying to act normal,
ie mimicking the looking around normal people seem to do and I
meet eyes with someone, I always feel like they will think I'm staring
at them and I DO NOT want to appear creepy!
So I finish my food without looking that way again, and they were
chit chatting - at times I almost wondered if they were intentionally
to made sure I could hear them, and they talked about.. well to me,
a huge variety of subjects. I'm guessing from what I heard that he was
like her father in law or something.
I know she mentioned giving birth to a son(whose name is my
name! of all coincidences!). So she was probably married. In case
anyone might be thinking she wanted to sit there because she liked
me or something. And maybe its dumb of me to even mention that,
I am not very attractive =\ and I don't really have any interest in
meeting a girl at the moment anyway, I have someone I care for-
though its complicated at the moment. So as far as I know and
understand- I'm sending any kind of signals that should say otherwise?
Anyway, I just wanted to get out of there as fast as possible,
while trying to not draw attention to myself. The SA tendencies
in me kicked into high gear, and it took a lot of.. well something,
to stay put and not just either pick up my tray and run to
another table as far away from everyone as possible, or just
leave with my food in hand altogether.
I don't want to pretend or say I know what its like for someone
with SA, I just know I felt something that sure seems to fit the
tendencies, but if I had an understanding of what was really going
on, and didn't have the negative assumptions, I would have been
much better.
I just really don't understand.. why pick that seat? There were
plenty of other cleaner seats? Also if there was some reason they
sat beside me, why couldn't they just say something?
Is there some signals I'm missing or.. was that just generally weird?
And if/when anything similar has happened to you, how did you deal
with it, or was it even an issue - maybe its just an Aspie thing?
of others' thread that I just saw was at the top before I
started typing this thread! I didn't see it..
(Since this kind of covers there very same thing!) *Doh!*
Edit2: (Although on second thought for me its more the lack
of buffer space between me and strangers than eating
in front of strangers.)
(Its long, I know, sorry- I'm not good at simplifying)
Okay so maybe not the best title *EVAR* but after
10 minutes I gave up!
So I had an awkward experience this morning. And I don't
really know if its just me, or if it would have been any different
for some of you, or if you have a clue as to what might have
been going on what.
I have Asperger's if you don't know what that means,
search Google, and maybe rent a recent movie called Adam.
I also, because of the whole social skills issue, exhibit some SA
tendencies and feelings about some social situations in many
contexts.
So I went this morning to meet with my previous college professor
so he could be my 'Adviser' for registering for classes this fall.
That went fine, afterwords, I realized, hey.. I'm hungry!
It was just about the end of breakfast time, which was fine
because I didn't feel too much like breakfast food.
So I get my food, which was a little meh, but not the bad part.
I pick a seat on a little small table with two chairs, that's against
a wall that goes up to about shoulder height when your sitting down.
On the other side of the wall is a booth for 4 people. The table was a
bit dirty, and there were lots of empty seats all over. I kind of picked
one that was in the middle, but out of the way, except for this booth
on the other side of that wall.
So I don't really understand if its and NT thing or what, maybe you
guys could enlighten me since even if you have SA, you understand
the signals mostly even if you don't act on it/them/whatever. Ok, or
you would at least see them better than me.
An older guy, and a younger girl, he was maybe 50ish? and she
was like my age.. 25ish? Get their drinks and then walk around a
moment, look at me or my general area at least twice for a brief
moment, walk to the booth, see its dirty - and then sit down
there anyway!
So its basically like this:
Code:
=============
(Me)||(Him----)
[Tb]||[-Table-]
(--)||(Her----)
= and || are the walls that are shoulder height when sitting down
[ and ] is the tables and (--) is a chair and (-------) is a bench
So I have only eaten like 2 bites, which means that there is no hope
of being able to finish quickly and go. Thus I spent my entire time
eating being nervous, thinking about whether I could move or if that
would be taken offensively. Trying not to act conspicuous, ie - normal.
I think I failed. I was constantly staring off to the right, away from them.
Anymore and my neck might have got stuck
Or if not I was staring down at my food. I only glanced their way one time
and wouldn't it be my luck.. that would be when the girl looked my way,
and our eyes met for a brief instant and I jerked my head back away..
I hate it when I am just looking around, trying to act normal,
ie mimicking the looking around normal people seem to do and I
meet eyes with someone, I always feel like they will think I'm staring
at them and I DO NOT want to appear creepy!
So I finish my food without looking that way again, and they were
chit chatting - at times I almost wondered if they were intentionally
to made sure I could hear them, and they talked about.. well to me,
a huge variety of subjects. I'm guessing from what I heard that he was
like her father in law or something.
I know she mentioned giving birth to a son(whose name is my
name! of all coincidences!). So she was probably married. In case
anyone might be thinking she wanted to sit there because she liked
me or something. And maybe its dumb of me to even mention that,
I am not very attractive =\ and I don't really have any interest in
meeting a girl at the moment anyway, I have someone I care for-
though its complicated at the moment. So as far as I know and
understand- I'm sending any kind of signals that should say otherwise?
Anyway, I just wanted to get out of there as fast as possible,
while trying to not draw attention to myself. The SA tendencies
in me kicked into high gear, and it took a lot of.. well something,
to stay put and not just either pick up my tray and run to
another table as far away from everyone as possible, or just
leave with my food in hand altogether.
I don't want to pretend or say I know what its like for someone
with SA, I just know I felt something that sure seems to fit the
tendencies, but if I had an understanding of what was really going
on, and didn't have the negative assumptions, I would have been
much better.
I just really don't understand.. why pick that seat? There were
plenty of other cleaner seats? Also if there was some reason they
sat beside me, why couldn't they just say something?
Is there some signals I'm missing or.. was that just generally weird?
And if/when anything similar has happened to you, how did you deal
with it, or was it even an issue - maybe its just an Aspie thing?
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