Dreamscape
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im an exchange student in foreign country and for past 3 months i've been avoiding most of the social activities and party invites due to my avoidant personality disorder, i feel so low and have no courage to walk up to the community i feel like i have lost the train to get in bond with all the people came as same time like me. therefore don't even want to attend rest of the activities. i got this feeling that they start to hate me, even though i just want to communicate with them i don't know the ways, so i just stayed "mute" whole time. Seeing people living their life with joy and without struggle is even more devastating for me. it made me look weak to them. I don't actually have friend that stayed beside me all the time since i came here, i tend to lose touch easily and this brings me low-self esteem. I'm in the edge of life, i'm not sure how long i can live with this Avpd.:sad:
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