Yeah even though i shouldnt be the one whos embarrassed about it if someone were to find out this is me. i mean if you're gonna go around searching for me online to see what im up to, then that person has even less of a life than i do so why should it matter? but at the end of the day i get nervous about it all the time because i dont want anyone to know about my sa. id rather them just think ima silent freak than know about it. people i know bsides my bf and his mama dont understand mental illness. they either think having mental problems means you're crazy or its just an exuse and would eat me alive for it.