Hi, first post.
So first of all, I'm a sufferer of SAD. It's really weird that I have never really met anyone in real life that was as socially phobic as I am. Sometimes I feel like I can talk to people. If it's very formal, I would feel confident and feel somewhat comfortable. There's just one thing: I am terrified of showing any emotion. I don't know why, but anything that isn't 99%-100% logic and reasoning, I am too scared to show.
I can't make or keep much friends in real life. I never talk to anyone unless they speak to me first. I act somewhat intimidating to people so that they don't think I'm weak. I don't answer my phone, and if I call back, it won't be until 1-2 days later.
I'm so scared that I can't even go on teamspeak(an internet voice chat program) with my friends that I've known on the internet (not in real life) for over 5 years. I feel fine chatting with them using text on the internet, but it terrifies me to imagine how it would be actually talking to them.
I'm so scared that I can't even talk to my parents. I can't talk to them unless it's something important, something like if I can drive the car or when I'll be home from school. Other than stuff like that, that's all I can ever really say to them.
People think I'm weird when they ask me what I think about girls, or if they start talking about girls around me. Since I am terrified of showing any emotion, I really feel uncomfortable around any type of situation like this.
The second thing I suffer from is chronic procrastination. It's getting out of control. I'm losing money from college because I keep withdrawing from classes. I'm very smart. The only reason I withdraw is because I put off work and 99% of the time I'll decide not to do it at the last second. I'll not study for a test, not come in the day of the test, and then even procrastinate contacting my instructor. I'll come up with lies to tell them about why I missed the test and why I didn't contact them until a week later. Some classes I'll just stop going to because of all the work I've missed and need to make up, therefore withdrawing from them. I'm withdrawing from too many classes and losing a ton of money because of it.
My hygiene is terrible. I procrastinate putting my clothes away, so they get dirty, procrastinate washing them, I only shower every 2 weeks (I'm 20) because I never have any clean clothes, I don't brush my teeth, etc.
I really want to visit my relatives and they keep asking me to come, but for some reason I still haven't come. It's been 2 years. Everyday I think about when I'll visit, but I never actually do it.
I'm wondering if there's anyone out there suffering from both of these things, like I am. I also wonder what the connection is between these two things and if one of these things affects the other.
So first of all, I'm a sufferer of SAD. It's really weird that I have never really met anyone in real life that was as socially phobic as I am. Sometimes I feel like I can talk to people. If it's very formal, I would feel confident and feel somewhat comfortable. There's just one thing: I am terrified of showing any emotion. I don't know why, but anything that isn't 99%-100% logic and reasoning, I am too scared to show.
I can't make or keep much friends in real life. I never talk to anyone unless they speak to me first. I act somewhat intimidating to people so that they don't think I'm weak. I don't answer my phone, and if I call back, it won't be until 1-2 days later.
I'm so scared that I can't even go on teamspeak(an internet voice chat program) with my friends that I've known on the internet (not in real life) for over 5 years. I feel fine chatting with them using text on the internet, but it terrifies me to imagine how it would be actually talking to them.
I'm so scared that I can't even talk to my parents. I can't talk to them unless it's something important, something like if I can drive the car or when I'll be home from school. Other than stuff like that, that's all I can ever really say to them.
People think I'm weird when they ask me what I think about girls, or if they start talking about girls around me. Since I am terrified of showing any emotion, I really feel uncomfortable around any type of situation like this.
The second thing I suffer from is chronic procrastination. It's getting out of control. I'm losing money from college because I keep withdrawing from classes. I'm very smart. The only reason I withdraw is because I put off work and 99% of the time I'll decide not to do it at the last second. I'll not study for a test, not come in the day of the test, and then even procrastinate contacting my instructor. I'll come up with lies to tell them about why I missed the test and why I didn't contact them until a week later. Some classes I'll just stop going to because of all the work I've missed and need to make up, therefore withdrawing from them. I'm withdrawing from too many classes and losing a ton of money because of it.
My hygiene is terrible. I procrastinate putting my clothes away, so they get dirty, procrastinate washing them, I only shower every 2 weeks (I'm 20) because I never have any clean clothes, I don't brush my teeth, etc.
I really want to visit my relatives and they keep asking me to come, but for some reason I still haven't come. It's been 2 years. Everyday I think about when I'll visit, but I never actually do it.
I'm wondering if there's anyone out there suffering from both of these things, like I am. I also wonder what the connection is between these two things and if one of these things affects the other.
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