Anyone else give themself OCD???

[BPike1]

Here's what I mean by the header:

I recently had a traumatic incident involving a pressured high anxiety situation wherein I convinced myself I could never fit in ever. It was terrifying and awful--but here's the worst part of it all:

A few seconds after having the thoughts which screwed me I had the thought that I now was going to obsess forever in order to fit in and/or find out the reason why I had convinced myself that I couldn't.

After having that final thought I developed a kind of OCD wherein I am continualy obsessing about how to get better emotionally from the incident.

And to be perfectly honest--it helped me for a while. I was really screwed up and having the ability to think precisely and obsessively about what exactly screwed me helped me greatly--especially in therapy--to get over my trauma.

But now I have this horrible guilt ridden insecurity that I am the only person ever who gave themself OCD purposefully, and I believe that if I can find one other person on the internet who did the same thing I will feel a lot better about myself (I swear that last comment isn't OCD motivated--lol)

But seriously? Anyone else give themself OCD via one specific thought--especially for a good cause like helping with a traumatic incident?

 

[RedRibbons]

Thinking positively is not ocd. If you are thinking positively it's a good thing. Feeling guilty about thinking positively is a different story, but you know there is no need. You may feel as if these positive things are a lie or a cover-up or something, but they are actually a good coping mechanism, and a way to change your own thoughts. If it is helping you, it's good, just try not to get too stuck on the idea that it's a bad thing to change your way of thinking.

And yes, I've done something similar.. But before I could really freak out and obsess over it, I reminded myself that it is normal to have any thought, no matter how messed up and obscure it may be.. And that doesn't mean that I am a person who wants to act on the things I think.

We are capable of thinking anything.. And it's 100% okay.

 

[streetsk8er794]

Yeh bro. I have this wierd OCD/Social Phobia type thing going on.

Let me explain: When I'm in a social situation, I have these OCDish type phrases that I percieve to make me sound more competent or cool. Examples of these phrases are "Be confident; I'm a leader; Love; Be cocky; Focus; F**k it; Be friendly." There are more than these, but they change so often, I can't keep up. These phrases change back and forth, and back and forth all day (especially when in a particularly stressful social situation like talking to a girl, or walking around the mall, or even just hanging out with friends). These phrases seemed to have converted to my normal activities like playing guitar; to make me better at it.

Like you, I am OBSESSED with finding a cure for this. I waste hours a day writing notes, and researching the web on different medications, etc. that will help me. Even at work while I'm supposed to be working, I'll be obsessing about how to fix this.

All I know is that I do not find some sort of solution soon, I will be a very depressed, and maybe suicidal person (not good). Im SO sick of this constant anxiety, and truly believe that OCD/SP is the worst mental illness in the world.

Good luck to all, and keep your heads up!

 

[Jellybeans]

Yeh bro. I have this wierd OCD/Social Phobia type thing going on.

Let me explain: When I'm in a social situation, I have these OCDish type phrases that I percieve to make me sound more competent or cool. Examples of these phrases are "Be confident; I'm a leader; Love; Be cocky; Focus; F**k it; Be friendly." There are more than these, but they change so often, I can't keep up. These phrases change back and forth, and back and forth all day (especially when in a particularly stressful social situation like talking to a girl, or walking around the mall, or even just hanging out with friends). These phrases seemed to have converted to my normal activities like playing guitar; to make me better at it.

Like you, I am OBSESSED with finding a cure for this. I waste hours a day writing notes, and researching the web on different medications, etc. that will help me. Even at work while I'm supposed to be working, I'll be obsessing about how to fix this.

All I know is that I do not find some sort of solution soon, I will be a very depressed, and maybe suicidal person (not good). Im SO sick of this constant anxiety, and truly believe that OCD/SP is the worst mental illness in the world.

Good luck to all, and keep your heads up!

sounds just like me, bro. it's hard but i always try to remember: the less you care, the less of a problem you have. quit caring and you got no phobias