Thanks for the advice LilMissTragic.
I guess it would help if I could stop hiding. Chat rooms are a no go becuase of my memory/concentration issues. I cannot follow more than 1 person without getting overwhelmed with thoughts. The reason I get overwhelemed is because I am paying attention to every detail and finding muliple meanings to every single word that appears on the screen. I freeze so often in chat rooms that it's not worth it.
10 minutes a month is all I can muster to spend time in chats.
1 on 1 is the only thing I can handle and even then it causes arguments every time. It doesn't help with my lack of understand of people, especially the ones who seem to blend in social situations (like chat).
None of the people in these chats are really suited as chat material for me anyway because they all have no idea how hard it can be for a person to concetrate.
Ohh "you can do it..just type" stuff that I get sometimes makes me just withdraw.
So to sum it up...it just doens't work for me
My depression is pretty bad a nd personality disorder just as difficult cope with. It makes it extra hard to make a move and then when I do my personality disorder has a double effect that pushes me down. arghhh
I don't even have the guts to type because I feel that I am invading other peoples space anyway.