Well you at least make it to the rejection stage :wink:
The only thing worse than rejection I'd say is missing the oppertunity all together, something I excell at - especially when you are pretty much certain they wouldn't reject you but you still don't ask.. a lifes worth of "what ifs" certainly blows
One way or another there will be somebody out there who is good for you, hell there are some spectacularly arrogant or ugly people that still manage to get into relationships (not that you are either) .
Just from reading your follow-up post I can see you're a resonable person not crazy or completely unloveble...
Some chicks and guys are just shallow and really don't look past the physical - but alot do, just keep looking mate.
writing yourself off by saying things like: "my attitude will not change until some girl will give me the chance,
however i think we all know the chances of that are. " is a great way to keep yourself thinking negatively about yourself, which inturn maybe reflected in the way you come across.
Also maybe looking in a completely different place for someone might help, I certainly know that most of the chicks in clubs don't really appeal to me, they all seem interested in a quick flirt and nothing more long term wise - from what i have observed, not first hand experience lol. Find someone whose interested in your hobbies etc, or join a club for something.
The main thing is just to try keep positive, and not write yourself off as completely unacceptable for a relationship. It may seem that way now, but thats the negitivity talking. You forget that each person is completely different, just because a few or most in the past have not hit it off with you does not in any way mean that women in future will all find you unattractive or not appealing.
But one thing is for certain, if you giveup completely on them now - you won't be in a relationship. And because it obviously means so much to you (and me) you do really have to keep your sprits up and keep looking.
And if it's really really getting your goat, there is always professional help - of course it's hard to go initially, but it does help. Well it is so far for me, beats being eaten up inside because of it.
A few may have hurt you in the past, but don't let that bleed over into your opinion of women in general or ones you meet to date or whatever.
Keep your chin up mate