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neddy

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#1
I have been very shy, timid, withdrawn for as long as I can remember. Had alot of problems at school as I got bullied all the way through as i wore glasses and a hearing aid and was too quiet to stand up for myself. I got picked on really bad and all my so called friends were making fun of me as well so I cut myself off, turned into a loner overnight and refused to talk to anyone unless it was really important. My parents never understood this and told me that I was a big embarrassment to the family and why was I the way I was well I didn't understand what the problem was either. To this day I now regret doing that as I have got no friends, very lonley, depressed and suicidal. I have got no social skills, very little self confidence and very little self esteem. Just thinking of using a telephone I start shaking and am unable to answer my door when the doorbell rings. My heart starts pounding and I shake really bad and hide just incase someone looks through a window. I have been living by myself for the last 9 years and apart from work have no contact with the outside world.
It really made my day when I found this site, there is hope for me yet as I now know that I suffer from a social phobia. All I need now is to find the courage to get some help, would love to have some support from someone, just knowing there is help out there has made me feel that there is a chance I can overcome this
 

Frozen_In_Time

Well-known member
#2
Hi neddy,

I can really relate to your situation, but I'm just really sorry that this is happening to you. I'm not saying that I will be able to help you, as I'm no good at giving advice, but I'm sure someone else would be able to. Remember, I'm here for you! I can offer you support and I can try my best to help you.

Take care.
Frozen_In_Time
 

Jess333

Well-known member
#3
Neddy,

I totally understand what you're feeling. I'm here to tell you that there is hope. You took a big step by coming to this website, it means you want to overcome this, it means you want to live and be happy. And I am working on overcomming my SP and self-esteem right now in my life and having success, so I'm saying there's HOPE. Don't think about suicide, I know it's painful, I KNOW, I know you think about just "ending it all", "ending the suffering", but you CAN end the suffering and STILL LIVE and you will see that life can be very wonderful!

Hang in there, I have to run to work and I'm working really late tonight and I have to go now, but I have some valuable info that you can probably use to get better and believe me it gets a lot better! My first day off is Sunday and maybe I can write out some steps for you to take to get your recovery started.

Hang in there you sound like a sweet person. You can do this. Tell yourself you can overcome this. Just by saying this you'll feel a little better. You'll feel a WEIGHT lifted off your chest. "Fake it till you make it" is what they say. Even if you don't believe it, SAY IT, your subconcious is still listening. But it helps to think about it, and believe it..believe that you can do it.

Okay, I will write more as soon as I can, in the meantime, just relax, try and go for a short walk outside, and read more of the posts on this website.

Jess



neddy said:
I have been very shy, timid, withdrawn for as long as I can remember. Had alot of problems at school as I got bullied all the way through as i wore glasses and a hearing aid and was too quiet to stand up for myself. I got picked on really bad and all my so called friends were making fun of me as well so I cut myself off, turned into a loner overnight and refused to talk to anyone unless it was really important. My parents never understood this and told me that I was a big embarrassment to the family and why was I the way I was well I didn't understand what the problem was either. To this day I now regret doing that as I have got no friends, very lonley, depressed and suicidal. I have got no social skills, very little self confidence and very little self esteem. Just thinking of using a telephone I start shaking and am unable to answer my door when the doorbell rings. My heart starts pounding and I shake really bad and hide just incase someone looks through a window. I have been living by myself for the last 9 years and apart from work have no contact with the outside world.
It really made my day when I found this site, there is hope for me yet as I now know that I suffer from a social phobia. All I need now is to find the courage to get some help, would love to have some support from someone, just knowing there is help out there has made me feel that there is a chance I can overcome this
 

Jess333

Well-known member
#4
Neddy,

What you need is to do is read as many books on boosting self-esteem as possible, and also see a therapist that can help you change the way you see yourself and the world around you. You need to read these forums and educate yourself on how other people are dealing with "social phobia". You need to concentrate on this and analyze yourself and figure out a way to get better. Make a plan.

**But I'm telling you now, you have to change your view of yourself. There's gonna come a day when you have to come to accept yourself for WHO YOU ARE. If you do not do this, and stay thinking about yourself and the world the way you do now, you won't change. And when you learn how to do this, you find a peace inside you never thought you could achieve.

And another thing..You need to train yourself to think positively. Take a piece of paper and a pen and draw a stick figure with a thought bubble attached to the head..make the thought bubble big. Think carefully about the "quiet thoughts" that you tell yourself throughout the day. You may not know it right off the bat, but think for a moment and write down the thoughts you tell yourself every minute of everyday. What are these things? Write down how you think of yourself. Does it say "I'm in control", "I accept myself as I am", "I like myself" "I love myself"?

Or does it say "I'm no good", "i'm ugly" , "i can't do anything right", "I'm socially retarded" If you think these thoughts, and these thoughts float around in your mind/subconscious, you will feel nervous in front of people. You will feel lower than they are and you will shake and freak out...and your self-esteem will get worse, and you won't want to get out of the house..etc.

You need to understand how POWERFUL these statements are. *** You ARE what you think.

You need to work on your self-esteem. Work on it step by step with a good psychologist, if you feel you're not getting anywhere with a psych, go to another.


What happened to you as a child was wrong and cruel (the kids teasing you). And you probably need a good cry over it, think about it, mourn it, but learn to accept it, it HAPPENED, ther'es nothing you can do to change it, so release it and that energy with trying to change it somehow, make peace with it, and let it go....

Teasing is fear based. Anyone who teases usually has something wrong with them, and teasing helps them feel more powerful and takes the attention off themselves. Which is really rude and crass and wimpy, but hey, that's human nature, some people are just ASSHOLES. I remember there was this one kid named Dean Nelson in third grade, everyone thought he was so cool and he teased everyone. All the girls were interested in him and all the guys wanted to be like him, and you know what? There was this one day where his hair had dandruff and everyone, and i mean everyone took that opportunity for payback and teased the hell out of him and he cried like a baby in the middle of class. And now that I know a thing or two, he was from a poor family that abused him and used drugs. He was angry and he chose to take his anger out on someone..anyone he could. But you know, that's life, that's human nature. And you gotta roll with it and embrace even that too!

I've learned so much. And slowly im' overcomming my social anxiety. I still have it to a lesser degree than I did believe me!!!!, but i'm in the process of retraining my brain and ...it's working.

If you want to know anything just write me here and I will reply. My prayers are with you. I know how badly someone can torture themselves with their mind and thinking...and when I start practicing (Psychology) I will work so hard to try and help as many people as I can that have "social phobia" to overcome it.

Take care..

Write me if you ever need support

[email protected]

Jess

neddy said:
I have been very shy, timid, withdrawn for as long as I can remember. Had alot of problems at school as I got bullied all the way through as i wore glasses and a hearing aid and was too quiet to stand up for myself. I got picked on really bad and all my so called friends were making fun of me as well so I cut myself off, turned into a loner overnight and refused to talk to anyone unless it was really important. My parents never understood this and told me that I was a big embarrassment to the family and why was I the way I was well I didn't understand what the problem was either. To this day I now regret doing that as I have got no friends, very lonley, depressed and suicidal. I have got no social skills, very little self confidence and very little self esteem. Just thinking of using a telephone I start shaking and am unable to answer my door when the doorbell rings. My heart starts pounding and I shake really bad and hide just incase someone looks through a window. I have been living by myself for the last 9 years and apart from work have no contact with the outside world.
It really made my day when I found this site, there is hope for me yet as I now know that I suffer from a social phobia. All I need now is to find the courage to get some help, would love to have some support from someone, just knowing there is help out there has made me feel that there is a chance I can overcome this
 

neddy

Well-known member
#5
Hi Jess,
Thanks for the advice. I really appreciate it. Finding this forum is the best thing I have done in ages, It makes me realise just how common this is and reading the forums and hearing how other people cope and do things gives me something to think about and too work on.
I am feeling down and out at the moment and the depression is really starting to set in again but I now know that there is something I can do about it, it will be very hard work and there may be alot of tears along the way but I feel there is no other option but to give it a go, and in the long run I have got nothing to lose.
I don't have a regular Dr but I saw one last month, told her what I was going through and all she suggested was to go on medication but as I drive taxis (A VERY BIG CHALLENGE AS I HAVE TO TALK TO PEOPLE) for a living I'm not sure if it is really safe, the first week I was on it my right hand went numb (still is) and I felt like a space cadet, a couple of days later I had my very first accident, even though it wasnt my fault it really shook me up, felt like I was having a panic attack so I threw them in the bin. I will have to do it the hard way without medication.

My biggest challenge at the moment is finding someone who can help me overcome this, took me all my courage just to go and see that Dr, maybe I need to find one that specialises in mental health and ask for a referral. This is going to be really hard but it needs to be done otherwise I will keep going downhill and will end up living like a hermit, I'm almost there, no friends, no one to talk except at work and my family doesn't understand what I'm going through, so the way I see it at the moment I have got nothing to lose and in the long run I can only benefit from it. Will let you know how I go.

by the way, you are spot on when you said that there is usually a reason why people bully other people especially the weaker ones. I gave a guy a lift home a couple of months ago, he was drunk and didn't recognise me as I've stacked on heaps of weight but I regonised him straight away, he was the main ring leader of the bullies at school and he came across as being really scattty (sandwich short of a picnic), took me all my will power not to say anything to him and he hasn't been able to hold down a job just goes from one to the other, so obviously he has got problems of this own. This has made me feel alot better knowing this but it wont help undo all the damage that has been done, that will take time and I am determined to overcome this.
Thanks for all the suggestions, I do appreciate it and will give them ago
 

Jess333

Well-known member
#6
Good job, good attitude.

Yeah, if the Psych isn't trying to probe you for anything..hm..and it isn't working, then I'd say, IF you're in the position to do so, get another one. Do you feel more comfortable with men or women? In any event, that is something to consider when picking a psych. You want to make sure you can feel comfortable with them. Me personally, I prefer women, I feel safer with women.

I'm recovering my "social anxiety" without medication. I WAS on medication from the age of 19 (when my SA REALLY started hitting me until about 6 months ago). I just couldn't stand being on them anymore and having to deal with the side effects. I was determined to do this without meds, but i'll tell ya, they sure did help before I figured out why I was having social anxiety!!!!!! They helped lift the depression when I didn't know what was happening to me!

But once I knew and realized it was a self-esteem issue, I started to feel more confident and add the fact that I would hit that point iwth the meds where they weren't affecting me anymore...like they weren't helping anymore, my anxiety would start to creep back in and taking the meds was useless and that's when I said okay, i'm going to ween myself off these things and try to do this full force on my own.


yeah, i gained a whole bunch of wait in my depression. But I am excited to say that coincedently, as I'm pulling out of depression, i've been caring more about myself and am DONE with being overweight and I have lost almost 20 lbs. And I'm still losing. I was 185 lbs and now I'm 169lbs.

Anyhoo..take it one small step at a time..don't rush yourself.

As for the perfect psych for you...

one thing that is important to remember*********** You can't just expect that the psych is going to just FIX you..or know automatically what's going on with you..you have to TELL THEM..you have bear and spill it all..they should get a clue from there and probe you..find out more and come up with a treatment plan for you.

If they don't and sit on their arse, pick someone new.

But i highly encourage you to explain to the psych that you have social anxiety and you nee HELP with learning how to think positive, you need their guidance and training.

Another thing..INTERVIEW the psych before you accept them. You're paying them ..whether it's insurance or not, doesn't matter, you're hiring them!!!! Tell them your situation..and ask them what they'd DO ABOUT IT TO HELP YOU.

I know you might be feeling down...feeling down and depressed sucks the big one, I know. But hang in there. I can't tell you how fast you can feel better if you just try to change your thinking.

here..if you have some time..read my post. it kinda tells you my whole history explaining where my social anxiety stems from and how i'm overcoming it including the books i read etc.

http://www.socialphobiaworld.com/postt156.html&sid=4b8378acc4c2d419382fa45b12b18123


Okay, Take Care Neddy

Jess

neddy said:
Hi Jess,
Thanks for the advice. I really appreciate it. Finding this forum is the best thing I have done in ages, It makes me realise just how common this is and reading the forums and hearing how other people cope and do things gives me something to think about and too work on.
I am feeling down and out at the moment and the depression is really starting to set in again but I now know that there is something I can do about it, it will be very hard work and there may be alot of tears along the way but I feel there is no other option but to give it a go, and in the long run I have got nothing to lose.
I don't have a regular Dr but I saw one last month, told her what I was going through and all she suggested was to go on medication but as I drive taxis (A VERY BIG CHALLENGE AS I HAVE TO TALK TO PEOPLE) for a living I'm not sure if it is really safe, the first week I was on it my right hand went numb (still is) and I felt like a space cadet, a couple of days later I had my very first accident, even though it wasnt my fault it really shook me up, felt like I was having a panic attack so I threw them in the bin. I will have to do it the hard way without medication.

My biggest challenge at the moment is finding someone who can help me overcome this, took me all my courage just to go and see that Dr, maybe I need to find one that specialises in mental health and ask for a referral. This is going to be really hard but it needs to be done otherwise I will keep going downhill and will end up living like a hermit, I'm almost there, no friends, no one to talk except at work and my family doesn't understand what I'm going through, so the way I see it at the moment I have got nothing to lose and in the long run I can only benefit from it. Will let you know how I go.

by the way, you are spot on when you said that there is usually a reason why people bully other people especially the weaker ones. I gave a guy a lift home a couple of months ago, he was drunk and didn't recognise me as I've stacked on heaps of weight but I regonised him straight away, he was the main ring leader of the bullies at school and he came across as being really scattty (sandwich short of a picnic), took me all my will power not to say anything to him and he hasn't been able to hold down a job just goes from one to the other, so obviously he has got problems of this own. This has made me feel alot better knowing this but it wont help undo all the damage that has been done, that will take time and I am determined to overcome this.
Thanks for all the suggestions, I do appreciate it and will give them ago
 

Anonymous

Well-known member
#7
Social phobia

Yeah Hi all, in particular Newbie.

I can totally relate to what you write. Although, my social phobia didn't really start until I was 14. Up until that age I was ok (even confident, god forbid lol). From around the age of 14 I remember becoming more sensitive and withdrawn. Basically from then up until now I have struggled with social phobia. I have had several jobs, dropped out of uni a few times and have had friends come and go. For period of about 2 years I was nearly housebound and had no friends. I was depressed and felt so isolated. Then I read an article written about social phobia (the adelaide advertiser). Thats when I first realised what was wrong with me and that others also suffered from this condition. The article was written by a psychiatrist. So I gave him a call and he agreed (I got a referal) to see me. He also put me in touch with a small support group called Connect. I did one of their workshops which I found very beneficial. I also made some new friends. I am not sure what state in Australia you live in. But I know most states have support groups and run workshops. Perhaps your first port of call should be a GP who should refer you to a psychiatrist.
All the Best

Johno
 

Orlando

Well-known member
#9
Hi, Neddy.

I just found this site a few days ago and was so happy to find people who shared the same experience as I have. Many people who I spoke to in the past said to me, "Oh, you're just shy!" or "You'll grow out of it!" Hey, I'm 30 and I still feel nervous around people. It is painful when others dismiss you and think you are over-reacting! I know my family loves me but I know for sure that they don't understand the pain that I feel in my life.

Well, I hope to speak to you again.
Hang-in-there!
 

neddy

Well-known member
#10
I live in Darwin, in the Nt and have looked around for a support group but have been unable to find one that specialises in social phobia. Don't know where else to go. Guess I will just have to keep looking.

Orlando I know how you feel. Have you ever had people think you are really stuck up just because you are quiet. I find that I feel very uncomfortable around people especialy around people I don't know very well and they read it the other way as if I'm not interested in talking to them and tell me I'm a snob when I'm not. Even though I am really shy have been since I was in pre school I have never outgrown it, my parents just kept saying she is so shy and that just made me feel worse instead of trying to encourage me to overcome it.
 

Anonymous

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#11
why??

Hi i have just found this page.. Actually i started searc about social phobia after 14 years :) I don't speak English very well so, forgive me..

Now i realize many people like me, if i tell you this is nice don't be upset because i fell i am not alone :) I am 31 years old until now i haven't seen anybody like me.. I really though that i am the only person..

Anyway i don't feel shy with the strangers.. I like to talk those people who i never met before.. I can easly get a new friends, or i can get a new job quickly. But the problem is those people i know :) I can not joke with them.. Actually i am really talkative and like to make a joke.. After i make people laugh something stops me!! After 3 second i am another person already.. I can talk with the girls very well in the begining, i can look anybodies eyes especially if i don't know them...

Can you plesae tell me if there is any medication can take me out of this? Bye the way i don't feel all the time with me.. Let's say in 1 mounth 15 days i am ok.. Rest of the days i am red :) And another think try to go ahead with red color.. Think that, that will not kill you anyway.. Just keep talking with people.. Just try and see, after 10-15 second you can overcome.. I promise.. Depends your energy maybe.. Somethimes it is good for me..

Now, if anyone got medication let me know if it is really good..

Thanks
 

Orlando

Well-known member
#12
Nomane,

Here's some medicine that I heard works: Prozac and Luvox.
Benzodiazepines, like Xanax and Klonapin, are thought to take care of the anxious symptoms you may feel (i.e., shallow breathing, heart palpitations, etc.) However, benzodiazepines may be addictive so watch out.
 

Jess333

Well-known member
#13
Re: why??

You know the same thing used to happen to me. When I met knew people, I would think in my mind "ha! they don't know I have SA I can charm them" and i would talk no problem because i knew they knew nothing about me. But then after talking to them for 3 minutes I would start to get nervous because I would start to realize that initial "hi hello i'm jessica " is over and now I really have to start impressing people with my charisma. Anyway, I would end of getting nervous and freaky. It's easy to start busting out into conversation , but when you start to feel like the spot light is on you after a few minutes. But fixing your self-esteem and thinking more positively can fix that!!!!!!!!!

Now I tell myself "concentrate ONLY on the positive, be yourself, no one else is nervous here, and other people are able to feel calm and secure so I CAN TOO!" I start focusing my thoughts and sometimes it feels like actual WORK, but then al lthe sudden the good mood comes rolling in over my negative thinking and my good mood is easily maintained.

Tchau (bye in portuguese)

JEss



nomane said:
Hi i have just found this page.. Actually i started searc about social phobia after 14 years :) I don't speak English very well so, forgive me..

Now i realize many people like me, if i tell you this is nice don't be upset because i fell i am not alone :) I am 31 years old until now i haven't seen anybody like me.. I really though that i am the only person..

Anyway i don't feel shy with the strangers.. I like to talk those people who i never met before.. I can easly get a new friends, or i can get a new job quickly. But the problem is those people i know :) I can not joke with them.. Actually i am really talkative and like to make a joke.. After i make people laugh something stops me!! After 3 second i am another person already.. I can talk with the girls very well in the begining, i can look anybodies eyes especially if i don't know them...

Can you plesae tell me if there is any medication can take me out of this? Bye the way i don't feel all the time with me.. Let's say in 1 mounth 15 days i am ok.. Rest of the days i am red :) And another think try to go ahead with red color.. Think that, that will not kill you anyway.. Just keep talking with people.. Just try and see, after 10-15 second you can overcome.. I promise.. Depends your energy maybe.. Somethimes it is good for me..

Now, if anyone got medication let me know if it is really good..

Thanks
 

Orlando

Well-known member
#14
Neddy,

I was just thinking of what you wrote a few days ago. I remember long time ago, I felt very anxious just saying "Hi" to people. The first time was no problem because they did not know anything about me but the second (and the ones after that) time, I would sweat and have heart palpitations.
I remember one of my neighbors used to sit on his porch and talk with his friends. They would all be telling stories or smoking. I remember dreading to come home because I would have to pass by his porch. I would try to time my arrival home when he would be inside (Either in the early morning or late in the night).
There were many times that I did say 'hi' to him but then I would think,"What are they saying about me? Do they think I'm abnormal because I can't stop and speak with them? Why am I so frightened? I am a man, right? Or am I a coward?"
Thoughts would haunt me for weeks. It got worse because I went to school and I would see the same people every day. Oh boy, when I think back at those days, I know it was tough. I remember that wanting to cry but not knowing how to. Even though I was unable to cry, I was crying on the inside...but I got through it though. I wouldn't be speaking to you if I wasn't. :wink:
 

Hope

Well-known member
#15
Neddy,

Your life sounds identical to mine - high-school bullying (which exacerbated - if not started - the SP), isolation, few (if any 'real') friends, and no relatives alive (and those few who are shun any connection, seemingly for fear of having to 'cope' with my situation). The very few 'friends' I (supposedly) do have initiate nothing - it's all always up to me. That gets pretty frustrating.

I can appreciate the problem of not having support groups in Darwin. It's a bit out of the way, even for Australia. I'm in a smaller city. There are groups in larger cities an hour's drive away, but can't manage that for financial reasons and the extra anxiety it adds.

Anyway - possible solutions (to isolation at least): Do you have any outdoor/hiking/nature groups there? I'm not sure if that interests you, but it's one way I muddle through my own situation.

SP support groups (specifically) are generally a bit rare, though depression-related groups seem more common. I was instrumental in getting an SP group going locally (though I didn't facilitate), but it folded (largely due to lack of publicity and - IMO - a complete lack of understanding by the association and the facilitator as to what SP even is). I entertained the thought of getting something going myself, but frankly am petrified of being in the limelight.

Check out some general-interest groups in your area as one way of getting away from isolation. Does your library have seminar series - most do.

h
 

Orlando

Well-known member
#16
Neddy,

I was just reminded of something. Yes, there were a lot of people who thought I was a snob because of my Social Anxiety. I felt I was caught in this losing predicament. If I talked to people, those people would hate me because I was awkward and stupid. And if I didn't talk to people then I would think they would hate me because they thought I was a snob. Oh brother! Now that I look at it, I didn't give myself any slack. Even more stupid, when I saw other people avoid speaking to me, I thought,"They must hate me because I am shy or stupid". Never once did I ever consider that other person to be a snob. Neddy, is it just me! Have you ever done this? :oops:
 

Orlando

Well-known member
#17
Dear Neddy and Hope,


I came across these websites and thought they might be useful to you. They offer help for people with Social Phobia in Australia. Hope they are useful! Take Care!

www.socialanxietyassist.com.au (Australian site)
www.anxietyaustralia.com.au(Australian site)
 

Orlando

Well-known member
#18
Dear Neddy and Hope,


I came across these websites and thought they might be useful to you. They offer help for people with Social Phobia in Australia. Hope they are useful! Take Care!

www.socialanxietyassist.com.au (Australian site)
www.anxietyaustralia.com.au(Australian site)
 

neddy

Well-known member
#19
Hello its me again, haven't been here much lately. Thanks for the information on the Australian sp sites. I will check them out. One thing i have noticed since I have found these sites is that I no longer feel as bad as what I used to and am starting to feel alot more positive.

Orlando I can relate to you. Alot of people think I am stuck up but don't realise it is just a lack of social skills. The way I see it now is that if people can't accept me for the way I am, then that is there problem and they aren't worth worrying about.

Have been feeling alot better this week, had an off week last week, was having problems with a lady at work, only see her for a couple of minutes each day but she is the biggest back stabber around, I'm always in a bad mood(when I'm not, just near tears - depressed), talks about me as if I'm not in the room, then I had a accident in one of the taxis, it wasn't my fault as someone didn't give way and pulled right out in front of me, 30 seconds later we connected and the other person commented where the hell did you come from. Hello open those eyes, did you look. I got the blame for that from Carol and from then on she would give me the oldest, and run down taxis to drive. On Sunday she gave me one that felt like it was going to stop any minute and it had a broken seat (drivers seat), I have got a bad back and need to sit upright and couldn't adjust the seat and ended up with a bad back ache. I saw red, went home after an hour, left a rude note on the pay in and then said I QUIT. When the owner found this (he has 22 taxis) kept ringing me up and asking why and what had he done to make me so angry. I'm one of his better drivers and he didn't want me to leave, usually I just say nothing is wrong but this time I went in there and spoke to Terry. I told him eveything and 40 minutes later I was still in his office. Apparently he has lost other drivers because of Carol so he has spoken to her, so when we are there at the same there is alot of tension but she is not allowed to talk to me and has got no say over which car i drive. She has often said to Terry whats wrong with her, why wont she talk to anyone, She doesn't understand. Like I said to Terry going behind my back and talking about me will not fix up the problem, say it too my face and I respect people so much more for that
 

Jess333

Well-known member
#20
Neddy, that woman at your work, i wouldn't go as far as to call her a "lady". She sounds like a snake.

Hey, i will quote something from "Choose the happiness habit" for you to consider.

"about three months ago I was thinking about leaving my job. escaping would be more like it. Some of the poeple i woeked with were so negative and critical. when i told my boss i was offered another job, he counteroffered with such a large raise and other benefits that, after considering my options, i decided to stay for the next assignment. i'm in a freelance business, and for that amount of money i felt i could "grin and bear it" for a few more months. besides, i'd always wanted to know how it would feel to "laugh all the way to the bank".

I soon realized i had made the wrong decision. every morning as i walked from my car to my office i was miserable with anticipation and dread, thinking of the people i had to put up with. i t made me crazy! and to think i believed the money would make up for the misery i faced.

Then i began to use the principles taught in CHOOSE THE HAPPINESS HABIT. I immediately realized that i was focusing all my attention on people i didn't like at work instead of the ones that i did like!

Idecided to change my focus. As i waslked to my office each morning i consciously disciplined myself to think about the co-workers i thought were terific. i focused on how much i liked these people and how i hoped we would work together on many occasions during our careers. what a difference! i actually began to look forward to going to work!

The change in my attitude snowballed and began to affect other people around me. they started being more cheerful and fun to be around. it was hard for me to believe that such a simple action -taking control of my thoughts - could make such a huge difference. "

Neddy, usually people like that hate themselves and hate their lives, so they would rather take it out on other people rather than themselves, like we do. They feel a lack of control somehow in their lives and to somehow gain control back, they take advantage of other people. See her for what she is, and soon you will start to pity her. She's so unhappy that it gives her PLEASURE to hurt others. People like that never change, we do.

You are in a much more peaceful place than she is, even though you may not see it, YOU ARE in a better place in your life than she is, trust me.

Pity her..when you see her, tell yourself that she is lost and if it wasn't you, she would be trying to stab someone else's back.

Once you start working on your self-esteem, it's so funny how those types of snaky people slither off when they realize they're not AFFECTING YOU.

don't worry about what she is doing. You're only focus should be "how can i be the best employee? HOw can i do a good job? and if you're doing this and doing your job, that is DOING YOUR BEST..and that's all you can do. ignore her. she's lost and her heart is cold. let her ruin her own life.

try not to let such a mean person have control over you. when you're around her, try and think about all the things you like about yourself. Don't know what you like about yourself, THINK HARDER. List some things. think about it...what qualities do you like about yourself?

for instance: if you like your intelligence think : "i like how i can figure things out..i like my intelligence

i like my sense of practicality

I like how I never give up on trying to feel happier, i like my drive and ambition

things like these.

when you start to think about these things, and believing them, which is the important part, you'll start to feel better.

and i'll bet dollars to doughnuts if you do this in front of her and you start to feel more confident, she'll slither off.

and who cares if she's talking behind your back! everyone knows she's a snake.

you have to learn not to care. becuase HAPPY PEOPLE, NICE PEOPLE DON"T do that! they're comfortable with themselves and don't feel the need to hurt other people. those are the best people, let me tell ya.

so i hope this helps you feel better about that reptile you work with. neddy that woman is in every workplace. trust me, you can find her everywhere you go.

Keep your thoughts positive!

:D

Jess
 
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