The anniversery of when I reached out, and finally got on medication is tomorrow. 1 yr since I've been on medication. On a scale of 1-10 of how much the medicine helped I would say 7, which isn't bad. Today though I was asked to go to walmart to get something to eat for dinner and I wasn't thrilled, the old thought of going into a store and I'm gonna feel weird came into mind. No lie as soon as I walked in this couple was up at the deli and I walked by them they were staring at me. I thought "oh God, I was anxious to begin with and I'm now being gawked at. Do I look weird? do I have something on my face? Why are they looking at me like that? Then standing at the checkout this creepy looking dude was in front of me, I saw him as I was trying to look preoccupied out of the corner of my eye turn and look at me. Now I was starting to sweat and fidget..man is it hot in here or is it just me?..I finally get up there to get rung out and good I'm out of the store! While I'm walking to my car my cell phone rings, its my mom calling me to tell me to go back in to get something else, I was pissed! I made it out and now I had to go back in.
Something, soooo simple as going in the store, can be the hardest thing. You guys can probably relate. How long am I going to have to be on medication for this? 1yr tomorrow..2yrs, 3yrs then? does it ever completely go away or does it linger and you have to keep fighting it and fighting it?
Something, soooo simple as going in the store, can be the hardest thing. You guys can probably relate. How long am I going to have to be on medication for this? 1yr tomorrow..2yrs, 3yrs then? does it ever completely go away or does it linger and you have to keep fighting it and fighting it?