HughJass said:I love drinking alcohol when I'm at home or somewhere were everyone else is drinking, but I find I'm terrified I'll make a fool of myself if I drink anything before dealing with people who aren't.
At home if does relax me and help me get over the day's anxieties.
I was like that. I was petrified of getting drunk away from the home. I knew when I got drunk I get a lil hyper and wild. I lose fear of people and tend to careless about what I do or say. Can often end up very crude :? but in a funny way.
But now I have started going to meets, where I need alcohol to actually get through it. I know I am a handful when drunk, but I am starting to enjoy it.
Being able to stop once I've started seems to be a problem for me. I cant just have the odd drink, if im there to drink, im there to get drunk
I know I should be able to control this and I have tried alternating alcoholic drinks with non alcoholic ones. This does help but at the end of the evening I'm still drunk, just a lil more controlled.