Blueshadow
New member
I'm ashamed to admit that I'm completely housebound at this point. I'm in pretty bad shape emotionally. It's like a long downward cycle that has spanned more than 15 years now. Before that I would stay in months at a time and then venture out. With me it's likely the result of abuse and also autism which carries with it social problems, communication problems, sensory problems. It has gotten to that point for me, whether I can keep living this way. There are so many problems and I don't fit in anywhere. I'm an artist and have a very significant talent. I have been abused most of my life because of my vulnerabilities. I have a lot of pride and it's hard to admit I have been victimized as well. It seems unfair that life can hand out that many lemons to one person. My childhood was a battleground of cruelty and abuse. I'm still alive but don't know what it's worth to me.
I'm not communicating as well as I could. Depression has taken over. If there are others here like me, I hope maybe to get to know you. As hard as that is to know someone else like myself, because I know how painful it is.
I'm not communicating as well as I could. Depression has taken over. If there are others here like me, I hope maybe to get to know you. As hard as that is to know someone else like myself, because I know how painful it is.