I have always been high anxiety and hated being social but I managed it. I got things done regardless of my feelings. Years ago I got my first panic attack. Last year about this time I had a major attack doing something that I loved. I loved going for long walks at 2a.m. Something about the night time, the crickets, the well lit neighborhood sidewalks that I live in and no people to annoy me. Anyways I ended up collapsing out of breath on a 3 mile walk I did almost every night. Shortly after that I developed agoraphobia so sever that I could not even get out of my bedroom. I have made some improvements and had some setbacks.
These panic attacks that I have now have so many physical symptoms that I can't function. Days after an attack I am sore throughout my body from the adrenaline rush.
Therapy has not helped me, same with meds. The thing is I am not thinking negative thoughts when I attempt to go someplace. I am just reacting to physical symptoms that appear. In fact for me the anxiety does not feel that bad to me, I felt worse before without the symptoms. The 180 heart rate, pain, choking, out of breath, unable to stand up and so on is what keeps me from doing things. I never had the "racing thoughts" so many with anxiety have. So my question is to others that suffer... Do you think about negative things or do you just react to emotions or physical symptoms that you know are not reasonable? I know I am not in any danger when I go out and it makes no sense to me. I loved long car rides to clear my head, now I am lucky to drive around the block without feeling like I am going to pass out.
These panic attacks that I have now have so many physical symptoms that I can't function. Days after an attack I am sore throughout my body from the adrenaline rush.
Therapy has not helped me, same with meds. The thing is I am not thinking negative thoughts when I attempt to go someplace. I am just reacting to physical symptoms that appear. In fact for me the anxiety does not feel that bad to me, I felt worse before without the symptoms. The 180 heart rate, pain, choking, out of breath, unable to stand up and so on is what keeps me from doing things. I never had the "racing thoughts" so many with anxiety have. So my question is to others that suffer... Do you think about negative things or do you just react to emotions or physical symptoms that you know are not reasonable? I know I am not in any danger when I go out and it makes no sense to me. I loved long car rides to clear my head, now I am lucky to drive around the block without feeling like I am going to pass out.