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basicallly its getting to the stage in the off season where i have to decide if i want to play rugby at a competitive level as i had been doing or play it at a more relaxed level
my problem is at the moment im going through an indifferent patch probably because of the meds im not severley depressed and im not at the opposite end of the scales either so im able to reason and think that i might be in a bad place again so i want to make a decision soon
last season i suffered major panic attacks my sa was as bad as ever and i had long spells of bad depresion and insomnia i was labelled a weirdo and gay which made an already difficult task nearly impossible
i have been contacted by 2 clubs who both want me to sign for them next year
one of the clubs i played at recently 2 seasons ago but it didnt go well my anxiety and depression made that a very miserable year not dissimilar to last seasonthe only difference is there will be a couple of players who i played age grade rugby with but im not really freinds wih any of them anyway are coming back to play and the other club like the club i joined last year i know nobody at
and the other alterntive is i could take it relatively easy and play at a lower level with my brother so ill be slightly more comfortable meaning less anxiety and panic attacks
i would really apprciate anyones advice or opinions because i dont know what to do at the moment thanks for reading
my problem is at the moment im going through an indifferent patch probably because of the meds im not severley depressed and im not at the opposite end of the scales either so im able to reason and think that i might be in a bad place again so i want to make a decision soon
last season i suffered major panic attacks my sa was as bad as ever and i had long spells of bad depresion and insomnia i was labelled a weirdo and gay which made an already difficult task nearly impossible
i have been contacted by 2 clubs who both want me to sign for them next year
one of the clubs i played at recently 2 seasons ago but it didnt go well my anxiety and depression made that a very miserable year not dissimilar to last seasonthe only difference is there will be a couple of players who i played age grade rugby with but im not really freinds wih any of them anyway are coming back to play and the other club like the club i joined last year i know nobody at
and the other alterntive is i could take it relatively easy and play at a lower level with my brother so ill be slightly more comfortable meaning less anxiety and panic attacks
i would really apprciate anyones advice or opinions because i dont know what to do at the moment thanks for reading
