Rise Against
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I have a baaaad problem... Im addicted to adderall. For those who dont know what adderall is, its a highly addictive drug used to treat ADD/ADHD. It is made up of four different amphetamine salts. It is comparable and very similar to purely refined methamphetamine. Its speed. The only way i can describe it, a caffeine pill on cocaine, topped off with 4 chocolate lattes.
Well ive had this problem for about a year. Although i can honistly say that i have never taken adderall to get "high"... I used to suffer from extreme depression/SAD, and one day i just couldnt take the pain and suffering anymore, and popped a couple extra pills and its been all downhill since then. I realllllllllllllllly regret doing that. I HATE adderall. It turned me into a selfish monster. Sure it helped with depression and a lot for SAD... until i got hooked on it, then it only magnified these problems and created new problems. For a while, my addiction was so bad that i honestly didnt think i would make it past 30 without having a heart attack or stroke. I was taking around 250mgs per day, crushed and snorted...
Well the past few months i have been trying so hard to quit, but it is BY FAR the hardest thing that ive ever tried to do... Ive been getting so close to quitting but i cant make it anymore than 2 weeks without it... I feel really guilty and embarrassed and in no way proud of my horrible mistake.
I dont know what to do. I havent told anyone about my problem because im way too embarrassed. Ive been thinking about going to a rehab center... but i really dont want anyone to find out. Any tips, advice, support would be greatly appreciated.
And please, for everyone reading this, PLEASE DO NOT SELF MEDICATE WITH DRUGS!!! They WILL F up your life and you WILL hit rockbottom! Hopefully i haven't done too much damage yet, i really need to stop before its too late...
And please dont judge me as a druggie... ive never drank, smoked, chewed... yet somehow im addicted to speed.
Well ive had this problem for about a year. Although i can honistly say that i have never taken adderall to get "high"... I used to suffer from extreme depression/SAD, and one day i just couldnt take the pain and suffering anymore, and popped a couple extra pills and its been all downhill since then. I realllllllllllllllly regret doing that. I HATE adderall. It turned me into a selfish monster. Sure it helped with depression and a lot for SAD... until i got hooked on it, then it only magnified these problems and created new problems. For a while, my addiction was so bad that i honestly didnt think i would make it past 30 without having a heart attack or stroke. I was taking around 250mgs per day, crushed and snorted...
Well the past few months i have been trying so hard to quit, but it is BY FAR the hardest thing that ive ever tried to do... Ive been getting so close to quitting but i cant make it anymore than 2 weeks without it... I feel really guilty and embarrassed and in no way proud of my horrible mistake.
I dont know what to do. I havent told anyone about my problem because im way too embarrassed. Ive been thinking about going to a rehab center... but i really dont want anyone to find out. Any tips, advice, support would be greatly appreciated.
And please, for everyone reading this, PLEASE DO NOT SELF MEDICATE WITH DRUGS!!! They WILL F up your life and you WILL hit rockbottom! Hopefully i haven't done too much damage yet, i really need to stop before its too late...
And please dont judge me as a druggie... ive never drank, smoked, chewed... yet somehow im addicted to speed.