MS87
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Ok so i have this problem its actually driving me crazy. I'm a 22 year old female and up until now have never had any feelings towards other women. I really fancy my hetrosexual friend, shes stunning and always gets loads of attention from guys, she has three guys at the minitue who want to go out with her. I'm friends with all three of the guys and they keep asking me for advice about how to approach her and what they could do for valentines day, i just say i dont know, it hurts trying to help them out when i wanna be with her! valentines days gonna suck knowing that shes with them.
Whenever i see her with these other guys like kissing of hugging i get jealous and go into a mood, i hate being like this and i dont want anyone to know i like her so i try and hide it, but its killing me. I know its just a crush i need to get over but somehow i cant! We were out last month and we walked past these two guys holding hands, i didnt think much of it but her reaction was 'yuck!'...so its not like i can talk to her about it cause it wil ruin our friendship.
We've spent a lot of time together recently and i've stayed around hers and she's stayed around mine, although the majority of the times we've been drunk we always end up hugging in bed....altho its me who always innitates the hugs she never pushes my arm away. we even walked home holding hands the other week. Whenever we go out with a group of friends we're always by each others side, i started dancing with this guy the other week and she kept pulling me away from him.....am i reading too much into this?
I just dont know what to do, i know i need to get over this but i cant seem too, if i dont see her or hear from her i get in a mood. I've tried phasing her out, like not sms ing her for a couple of days but when i do i still like her just as much :s
I wouldnt classify myself as gay and i dont have these feeling towards anyone else but her. Any ideas how to get over her?....i think speaking to her would ruin our friendship.
Thanks for reading this, i know its a bit pathetic but i just dont know what to do anymore.
Whenever i see her with these other guys like kissing of hugging i get jealous and go into a mood, i hate being like this and i dont want anyone to know i like her so i try and hide it, but its killing me. I know its just a crush i need to get over but somehow i cant! We were out last month and we walked past these two guys holding hands, i didnt think much of it but her reaction was 'yuck!'...so its not like i can talk to her about it cause it wil ruin our friendship.
We've spent a lot of time together recently and i've stayed around hers and she's stayed around mine, although the majority of the times we've been drunk we always end up hugging in bed....altho its me who always innitates the hugs she never pushes my arm away. we even walked home holding hands the other week. Whenever we go out with a group of friends we're always by each others side, i started dancing with this guy the other week and she kept pulling me away from him.....am i reading too much into this?
I just dont know what to do, i know i need to get over this but i cant seem too, if i dont see her or hear from her i get in a mood. I've tried phasing her out, like not sms ing her for a couple of days but when i do i still like her just as much :s
I wouldnt classify myself as gay and i dont have these feeling towards anyone else but her. Any ideas how to get over her?....i think speaking to her would ruin our friendship.
Thanks for reading this, i know its a bit pathetic but i just dont know what to do anymore.