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Hi, Just an update which unfortunately isn't positive but shortly after my post, I had to postpone my counselling as my wife became seriously ill. My counsellor was supportive as I dealt with the immediate aftermath of it all. I was in touch recently to discuss a restart but I'm so overwhelmed...

It's been a long time since I posted here and plenty has happened in my life. My wife fell seriously ill for which she is undergoing treatment, trying to look after her and the children, trying to deliver at work (amidst the work fraud anxieties) and responsibility for a household and car that...

It's our religious celebration and I've taken extended time off from work and I'm already wishing I could be in the office than home. Too many people to deal with, plenty of anxiety, on top of existing worries.

I've started some counselling over the last month and we discuss meditational techniques (deep breathing) and religious words in moments of anxiety or situations I'm about to go into. I still feel day to day that I have ups and downs and the latter have been dark for my family. But I...

In two separate meetings at work, I feel I've been picked out by a Trustee to contribute. Why? I think it's because I'm too quiet (which I am) and he expects me, in my role, to be dominating the proceedings. Yesterday, he pointedly said to me: "How are you going to help?" During a meeting to...

So after many years of struggle and at the age of 35 and with no direction as to how I can try and reverse this regular doom and gloom that envelops me, I thought I'm going to seek help from a counsellor who can understand my religious, ethnic and cultural background and may be help me for the...

I'm not sure if walks in this situation is a negative but it reminded me of a long walk I took yesterday to the dentists. I could have taken my car, been home in around 30 minutes. But the way I've been feeling (so physically and mentally exhausted) I thought the driving of a car gives me...

I felt slightly better meeting his children yesterday who seemed so at peace with it all that it put my thoughts in perspective and the right context. Maybe next time I'd try to do something but with my driving anxiety, probably not. I have to add to this that I spoke to my manager today to say...

I'm feeling incredibly low. I've got driving anxiety so when I drive, I have a tunnel vision focus on what I'm doing but unfortunately on Friday, it came at a devastating cost. On a return journey home, I noticed two cars parked up. The weird thing about it was the first car was parked at angle...

Hopefully this place will be more supportive than other forums who would say "you should be sacked or disciplined!") But yes, I did invent a fake Covid-19 test to avoid going into work for this work lunch and this event. I just didn't feel an improvement in my mind to meet people and thinking...

Congratulations on the job. It can be a good thing if you have a work colleague or friend who you can talk to about your work but also more importantly, about any anxiety. I had a very good work friend in my last job, however I never was able to share my deepest anxiety issues with her as...

I wish the ground would swallow me up and make disappear from this world. Work, home, family - everything is overwhelming me. It's so hard as I can't see what small step I could take to help situations. I've signed up for counselling support, paying for it that I'm awaiting but who knows what...

I'm supposed to have worked for 7.5 hours today. I've probably worked for a few hours. Rest of the time I've been sat aimlessly at my laptop feeling overwhelmed by the tasks I've got to do; feeling incapable of doing them; sat browsing unnecessarily on Twitter; just doing anything but work. And...

At work, I'm feeling so conscious of what other people may think about me. It could be if I've not done a task, or if I haven't contributed in a meeting that I should have. Latter happened today when there was a big meeting and I felt aware that people (Trustees, my manager, colleagues) may be...

I've said it for many years going as far back as my 20s that I want to join a gym and "tone up". Unsurprisingly that hasn't happened. Now I'm slightly overweight and at 35, I want to improve my physical health, my diet and hopefully it helps with my mental health. There is a leisure centre...

It's something I struggle with, building up anxiety before it and not delivering on a fluent phone call. At work, I do procrastination for a little while until I realise I have to do this soon. I try to do it first thing to get it out of the way then I try to time it so I'm either alone or less...

I'm such a work fraud. Wonder when the penny will drop "oh erm, this guy isn't what we thought he was"

"I f*****g hate driving!" I barked at my wife as I tried and failed to reverse my car into the driveway for the billion times. I will have been driving for four years in September, in my mid-thirties and I am so tired of being rubbish at driving causing a nuisance to myself, the people around...

No chuckling for me. That's what I'll be doing until next Monday when I hope it will be "safe"

I've been anxious for weeks with everything going in my head. Family, work, home and all. Tonight I added to that by hitting my car to another and running away. I'm waiting for the cops to come and give me my punishment that will be deserved.